unknown person that is you
i want to meet you
i want to see you
i want to know you the way she did
i want to see you
i want to meet you
i wish i knew the real you
because all this time i was hiding too
all the things he never knew
to keep away the brutal truth
the frightened child called me
the ruthless you
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i'm not sure what to do anymore i lost another friend to suicide and i couldn't help him i don't think i tryed hard enough i should have done better. i should have stopped this. I want to save people all the time but i can't anymore i just can't do it because my mind is slowly crumbling to become someone i don't even know anymore
i used to know who i was then... they took it all away! the people that i wanted to most to be my friends they told me to leave all my other friends behind that they were the ones making me sick.. sick of living. I don't know whats true anymore and if i die i can't die because to many will follow me and disapper more and more then all the people i loved, friends, ex bf's etc. will become the dirt under my feet and i'll try not to let that happen but i don't think i can try hard enough anymore
and ******** love i hate it! It does nothing but put a whole through you heart people say "i love you " but they never mean it. mever not anymroe to me. I hate veryone who would say that to me intimitly i can't sleep anymore i told a friend of mine to dream and i think it helped him but i isn't my saving grace anymore . I've stopped day dreaming
i'm using more makeup then i should be .
i signed satings book when i slapped one of my own friend that the others told me to leave be they were the one's poisionign my mind... my soul out of pure consite because of the others i've lost my self and ther is only one person (guy) that can help me find myself but he'll never know the truth
i stopped dreaming because of him stopped living because i knew my life was s**t until i met him the on who made me laugh the one that made me feel like i was myself not some cheap plastic doll that has only on thing to live for " the click " but i'm going to try not to complain i'm going to try to be that hppy girl that i once was the one that dreamed the one that smiled i'm going to try harder then i would to sace a friend i'm going to try to be me biggrin cry
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thinks* i thought that this would never happen
me become someone i'm not
but finally be someone i know
thinks* i thought that this would never happen
me become someone i'm not
but finally be someone i know
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