hello again, as some of you might have noticed as if you arse holes even read this i have not given up hope even though over half my entries have no coments let alone views, so hey, ive just been sitting up here thinking, what is it that makes people afraid of this? hmm, first i came up with the option that they have better things to do with their pointless lives...nah... then i thought, maybe they find something about this offencive, yeah probably, but thats me, im not going to change that nor am i changing the way i tell you people things you dont even want to hear about, im sure most of you have something better to do then hear about my mental and physical status ay?, but hey, maybe it just because you are afraid of my journal, you see the title of it and think "freaky stuff? this isnt apropriate for children i wont look at this" well your pussies, i dare ya to read, come on, you know you wont, no matter what happens no ones gonna read this, i could say whatever i wanted and no one would know, im all alone in this damn forum, no one cares about this cold soul, i know this as a fact, one year on gaia, i have donated so much but got so little in return, i tried going on a quest to get some items i wanted but no one gave a s**t, i tried making new friends but you all shun me and leave me, i tried giving people help but that turned out worse then it was before, i am now sitting here typing this without hatred, without pain, but with sadness, i dare not cry for i dare not show emotions to this wretched soul of mine, i fear for the worst for i am one who believes violence is not the answer, but i love violence dont i? i thought i loved it, blood, bile, infectionous pain, its all part of life, a darker side of life we dare not dive into, we dare not to find what makes us hurt but what makes it hurt, we care not for stopping pain but more to make it, the world is in a strangle hold, and only we can free it, but we are pushing harder, we are making this what it is, all this time i have been picking at what makes this world awfull, when all this time it was me...
~: Matia Joseph Damian Romanova
Matia Romanova Community Member 
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