it seems like there is nothing more to live for
i now know he doesn't love me back
even though i can't say that i tryed i will try to get over him
a nd still be his good friend
even though unknowingly i loved him but he will never know that
and if he asks i have no secrets yet that i haven't told
but this is different
he is different
even though i consider us " normal" people we r far from normal
he has so many feelings i have alot of dreams and there is nothing that i can do about that
so i will keep this disguise for as long as i need
for the only person that i want is him and there is nothing else anyone can do
I'll say it's over but that would just be another one of my horrible lies like always
emo another thing he loves another long forgotten person
some one that used to love him a passed addiction
that hasn't warn off
but i think I'm going to wear away soon too
but he would understand if i approached him with the right words
like not i love plz be mine i've loved you forever( well since we've met) and i only want to be with you NO i would never say something like that never
so i would say something like
hey you know that guy that i like blah blah blah
and the rest so if he finds out i'm not totally embarrassed and he'll just hate me. And he's knows what i'm thinking but he probly doesn't know about this journal or about how i fell... so if worried would be the answer i'm not worried at all i but i will not give it away that i love him and no hints will be given not that anyone cares but... stressed god it's just pissing me off i want to talk to him so bad and he just blows me off and i feel pain when i think about him again i only w=eat small portions of food nothing big i getting sick i had to stay home from school a while back because mom thought i had the stomach flu (i really had love sickness) for all fo you who have ever felt like there was a hole in your heart a stab wond in you side then you know how it feels to be me at thie very moment even drinking water is making me sick god this
******** up !
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emonis
thinks* i thought that this would never happen
me become someone i'm not
but finally be someone i know
thinks* i thought that this would never happen
me become someone i'm not
but finally be someone i know
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I'm sure whoever he is, he will not be mad at you, or hate you.