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I'm finally on cool terms with my ex biggrin One of the most schoking things she asked me was, "So why aren't we together then?" Well unfourtinatly for me. She has someone thats better for her right now, I can't deny that. Two, I can't give her what she wants. All she asks was that I love her fully with out a 100% doubt. That was true for me.. BUt after an on and off relation ship over a span of 3 years, something did not feel quite right. Sometimes it felt like my feelings for her were gone, unless it was pain. The only emotions I was able to feel was pain. I thought I could have sought help from her, so I honestly told her how I felt.

I should have taken into account that sometimes, the wors will paralyize a girl, and reasoning won't be taken in. I know even today, she's still hurt by those words. I think though, that maybe she understands what I meant. Long Distance realationships are hard, for various reasons. Add in the cause of strain, and only being able to read words. Sometimes, words read can feel emotionless, and cause pain to the emotionless. I would try everynight to hear her voice that calmed me so much. After a while though, that's all it could have done. Admist all the pain, and fearing of causing her pain, I had one option, I let her go. The last damned thing I would expect is that she found a bf that same night. I'll add more later.