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the thing I'll prolly never write in... the title pretty much says it all. I have a livejournal that I post in more, and thats maybe once a week. I may at least let people know when I'm gone for long periods... and why. I tend to take long absences alot.


Dracoya
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omg uber long post of doom!
It occurs to me suddenly that I should post something. Its been quite awhile since I had.

I haven't been able to get drunk since one of the parties that steven had in the winter. When I went wandering down cherry street alone in the cold cause I couldn't take John's driving up and down looking for Steven, who had jumped out of the car and, instead of going to wafflehouse, ihop or wherever... gone home. I keep having that feeling everytime I try like the one you get the day after getting violently ill from drinking too much and you try to drink again, where it turns your stomach a little and you feel more like a 'thanks but no thanks' kind of thing. It expecially sucks since I've been wanting to get drunk and have stocked the liquor cabinet fairly well too.

Had to move again. Savage Leasing is one of 'those' companies/landlords... they tried to sue me for rent from November till... now, pretty much. Even though after all the work I did, and having to pay a tech to come out and fix the heater. All I wanted was the one month that I had already paid for and then just to pay normally. But no. In any case, I showed up to court with a nice stack of papers and she pulled me aside to settle everything out of court. Guess they didnt think I'd have my s**t together or something. I almost didnt but I was lucky in finding the box that everything had been filed/stuffed into. I handed her the key and that was that. Between her hypocracy and his arrogant patronism... if I never hear from them again its too soon. I dont even really care about the deposit.. it was only $150 anyways.

My parents are going to buy the stove and fridge that I had gotten, since there were no appliances there. With all the catering they do they would really like to have an extra set in the garage. Strange, but okay. My parents are dorks and I love them that much more. If you go to the Castle of Muskogee this year watch the chessboards. My dad is going to be in it. He's the captain of the guard normally and mom decided she just wanted to run around as a gypsy this year and carry around Sasha, who is an adolescent ball python. They are still going to be cooking the entire staff's lunches, which I'll help with as I can... but aren't going to be doing as much with food as they were last year. They are getting into the Red Gryphon thing now too and having alot of fun with that. My mom never really got out much so I think that this is going to be good for her. She's silly when she's drunk, and is making good friends and getting out of the house more.

Moving was a pain in the a**... as per usual. I am extremely grateful to Random and Taniel for helping me move. I'm totally fricking hiring people to do it for me from now on. Too many broken/missing things. My big black bookshelf, fiberoptic christmas tree, a box of those good spirally florescent/natural light bulbs... and one couch cushion. A bottom one, unfortunately. Ugh. I've only been able to get the bathroom unpacked... though I think there is one more box that belongs in there somewhere. The apartment is spaced different... better closet locations and A LOT more closet space (I have 5 walk in closets. wtf?) Hopefully the pool will get cleaned and opened up and the courtyard cleaned up. The muddy courtyard I dont care about as much as the pool. I'd love to slip in after work and swim around abit (quietly) to relax after work.

Work has been.. interesting. We are still in DIRE need of a reliable driver... hours and pay will honestly be fairly small to start with, probably just a thurs,fri,sat thing from 9-4. However, we cant do radio/tv adds yet as we are barely keeping up with business right now. I'm the only reliable driver, though there is another ... they tend to take off 1 or 2 days a week. Not set days... sudden OMG This or this or this is wrong and we have to go RIGHT NOW. kind of s**t. Way too often. I'm going to b***h a moment, so dont mind me... but they also both have very abbrasive personalities and tend to blow up yelling and screaming about the littlest damn thing like me taking 2 orders and them taking 1. It all evens out at the end of the night... and actually, they just about always have more orders than me since they have 2 people, one driving and one navigating and delivering the pizza... and I just have ... me. So I'm abit slower, understandably. I dont get them.. at all. Okay, bitching over. Anyways. We are also in need of someone with some kitchen experiance... anyone with pizza kitchen experiance would be awesome. Its 7something an hour but its also cash, no taxes out of it.

Had kittens a few weeks/month? ago. They are in -obsenelycute- phase. There are only 5, one of them is mine... maybe two. The others already have homes. Not letting them go until I'm sure they are all properly weaned and littertrained though. No pictures. Dont ask.

Still no net or tv for now, am going to wait abit longer to make sure I'm good on bills and some vehicle expenses that have come up.

... been working 5pm till 4-6am lately... maybe 1 day off a week. If the window-lickers dont bolt. They did say that they werent coming in sunday before hand this time.. which means I only get 1 day off this week... as long as something doesnt come up on monday. Oh.. window lickers... its a nickname that the other kitchen staff has termed them with... My boss Critter has a joke... one of those things when you are really tired and acting goofy at work. In a retard kind of voice " I like glass, it tastes clear. " and then he'll like... fake-lick one of the hotbox glass doors or something. Somehow after that joke the couple I was talking about started being called the window-lickers by the main cook and, progressively, others in the kitchen. Anyways.

Since I'm overly tired and in a ranty-rambly kind of mood. And by this point most people have skipped and gone to read whover has posted next... I've been very... tired emotionally lately. Its been quite a long time since I've been in any sort of a relationship. I really dont know what to do or where to look or anything like that. Part of it is that I am abit selective on people that I am attracted too, but on the other hand my selections dont always mean much as I get to know people. There is one that I am head over heels for, but for distance, its not something that I try to think too much about... lest it hurts all the more. Its still nice to have a crush like that though, in spite of differences or faults or what have you, I would still do anything for them. The urge to up and move back to that area is so unbareable at times... I really just dont know right now, and have been keeping myself insanely busy with other things, I think... in order to keep my mind from dwelling on it for too long. Then again, with how my personality is perhaps I cant even really be with anyone. I mean... my longest relationship thus far has been... 6 months.. tops? And I've really only had 2... unless you count the two LDR's that I had. Which are two more people I try not to think too much about. Sometimes though, I still think about Gareth. He had a habit of coming back to places on a different name to see how people were doing, trying not to be noticed. There is no point in dwelling on all those what ifs... I wonder iPerhaps I should think the same way now... but after you've held someone... kissed them, told them goodbye face to face ... it seems more tangible than it probably should. Perhaps I am just lonely though, having not even been able to get out much and spend time with friends. I'm also fairly tired, which tends to make me abit more cynical in my wandering thoughts.

In any case...

There is a book series called 'The Crown of Stars' by the author Kate Elliot. You need to go read it.
Its my absolute favorite. An obsession, even. I have all of the books in softcover and hardcover. Its borderline to how some of those harry potter fans are. But seriously, its ******** good. And it makes me sad that I have noone to talk about it with, because so much happens... there are so many plot twists and foreshadowings and visions and stuff that having a debate about certain parts of it would just be absolutely awesome. I got one guy at work to read them and we really had fun talking about it... but he moved away awhile ago.

The books are as follows:
King's Dragon
The Burning Stone
Child of Flame
The Gathering Storm
In the Ruins
The Crown of Stars (this is book 7, dont read it first!)

The last book was just finished... I started reading this in 10th grade... like.. in 1999 or 1998.
I think I'm going to reread the whole thing now, now that I've finished the last book. I really shouldnt though, cause whenever I start reading a book I normally barely sleep, barely make it to work on time... think about it constantly... and then start dreaming about it. I'm the same way with any new videogame I start that is really good. I find that if I watch a good movie, I will often dream about it the following night or two as well.

I have weird dreams.

... I have rambled on for far too long.

Gnite.




 
 
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