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I have walked into a world that I never thought I would have gone into. This world has taken over me and now I feel like I am trapped. For years I have lied about who I am and who I liked. I lied to so many people and I have fooled so many of my friends and sweet people. I don't know why I do things that I don't mean. I do things that hurt people and I don't mean to. It took me so many years to come to terms with myself of who I am and now I am afraid to even come out into the world and say I am a lesbian. As in many lives that is forbidden and I don't know what to do. I guess I do what I can and live with the things that I have done. But what of those that cannot? Can they forgive me for lieing to them? Will they ever speak to me again? Do they even care? There are so many things that I think of and want to do but am so afaid. What can I do to solve this problem? I can end it and make it go away, but that would be running away and I don't run from anyting. I could stand tall and take it in. I could go hide in a dark corner from the world to forget. But they never forget. I have lost my way, and I have no hand streached out before me to find my way back. I guess in time I will find a way through this darkness.