Eh.. These past few days have been really lonely. I'm startng to feel a bit seclusive, and I don't want to be around people as much as I normally would (It's not like I hang around people anyway.)
I'm a bit depressed. It's really hard to smile and mean it right now. Sucks. It's like you want new friends, yet you feel you can't hold up your end of friendship. I always feel like I'm just doing something wrong. I'm screwed up and I can't seem to act the right way to help others. When I want to help others, they never want my help. I'm a burden.
I won't go so low, however. It doesn't help to stop to be sad for too long. Time drags on, and you have to walk with it, even if you are heartbroken or lonely or anything n that category. I do need a familiar face, and a hug.
I feel like I need a companion in my life. A woman who fits just perfectly and makes me feel whole. I want someone I won't feel like I've got consequences with, either. These are sensitive words. I hate saying this whole paragraph, as I really don't like giving out really vital pieces of information. I feel it is necessary to try and get it out there, though, since holding it in isn't gonna help.
I wonder what my friends are doing. ~sigh~ Ah, I don't feel like talking to them right now ...
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