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I entered a new martial arts class wing chun i believe its called i met a beautiful girl there name yuki i asked her to go out with me we kissed on the first date we trained together, and she somethimes stayed overnight in my appartment but then my sensei her step father wanted to test me needed a 8,000Y fee "the hell with that, way too much" i argued then he replied "your better off finding another school", "sure thing" i replied he said "wont be so easy"...as i walked away looking over my shoulder in her eyes i new i wouldnt see her again after the disrespect i showed my sesei and her pa i new i couldnt go back it would be digraceful so it was my first day with out her she called leaving 13 messages on my phone her sweet voice pierced my ears as she depreatly begged to see me. I was foolish I knew it could have worked out but in my mind i was too repectful....that 2 weeks without her i listened to her voice over and over and over again it was my way of feeling that she was still here she came to my house that friday night and saw me she was looking so beautiful but....i ate alone watched bruce lee movies and drunk too much shochu spirit sake a bit angry and upset, she knocked on my door i opened it and i said "watta hell you want huh?" she asked what was wrong with me pleeding to come back and why the disrespect i took my sake set and slammed it glass wetness every were on the wall on the floor and i cut the side of her cheek she held her cheek and i'll never forget the look she gave me supprised as if she didnt expect that from me so i looked at her she smacked me once and i kept staring twice and i kept staring the third i grabbed her hand and fell on my nease pleeding to forgive me but it jus didnt do. my respect was lossed and found but hidden til it jus vanished off the face of the earth for her, she left that night and the memories of her i drownd it away with cheap rice wine and now i feel as if i have to be a protector for women so that they can earn the most respect and kindness that is exceptable...