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I still think about you everyday. Heard a song you gave me so many years ago, broke down at work and cried. I miss you so much. I wish time went back I'd stop all of this, you'd still be here. I can still see your face in my mind, you are so beautiful. I don't know how to ease this pain, how to live a normal life anymore without you. I can't move past you no matter how hard I try. I miss you, letting go feels so wrong. It breaks me to even give it a bit of thought. I'm making new friends, so I'm not alone anymore but it's not the same. None of them could ever make me feel the way you did. Things in this world work so much more differently then when we were kids. I don't think you'd like this world the way it is now. I wish I could talk to you, see how the after life is treating you, make plans to find each other when it's my turn. I can't wait for that day my love, god that's the only thought that keeps me going anymore. The boys miss you, it's less for them though thank goodness but they bring you up sometimes. They like to ask questions about the past. I miss you bum, be home soon.