Tuesday,September 25th, 2008
I have really looked at my life and have seen how me/my friends have evolved over time.After something happens you really look at it a different way and realize not just them getting older, its you too. Things happen when you don`t want them to, and I very dislike that. Today I realized that fact that the girl of my dreams left me a while back. I thought it was her. I have been friends with her for about 6-8 years. We went out for a while but she didn`t feel the same connection so yeah. But something happened and it made me realize, how old me/her we`re really getting. I guess it was`nt meant to be but i still like her and always will. But now i can`t look at her the same way, I did`nt think it would happen. I am not the most romantic person but i`m a little shy and it`s hard for me to just do something cause most the time i`m so nervous I don`t know what to do. And the girl just wonders,"Why didn`t he kiss me, why didn`t he do this?" It`s really my parents cause the are messed up. I live with my mom, step-dad , and my grandmother. I have a step - dad cause my real dad he killed himself and not a grandpa cause he died of cancer. So i say messed up cause they don`t give me as much advice as any other parent would to their child but i feel as i am a ab-normal person. Deep down in my heart there is a sadness i can`t get rid of. When i have problems happen or i just don`t solve them, they stay there,not moving til` it`s solved. But a lot of them are still there. Life sucks, and no one can change that.
-Chris D. aka - white wolf pack
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