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well...um...hi everyone. Look guys i just want to tell you all how sorry i am.
There is a load of stuff going on in my life at the moment that most of you dont know about and its screwing up my head bigstyle.(if you really want to know pm me) Now because of this stuff ive been acting differently and doing stuff i wouldnt usually do, which quite rightly you are getting pissed off with. i just want you all to know i would never intensionally hurt any of you because your my closest friends.

I would do anything to take back what ive done but i know i cant so please if you could find it in your hearts to forgive me i would be eternally greatfull.

Yours in the family of God
Jade
xxxx

never ever ever fall in love, it only ends in tears and your better off without it. play the feild whilst your young and dont tie yourself down. have fun and never forget about your mates. Your mates will be your mates forever, guys come and go. And if your a christian (or any othere religion for that matter) focus your life on living the way your god (or gods) want you to, not on your own selfish desires for your life.

there ive ranted and raved, got it off my chest.

I HOPE YOU PAYED ATTENTION!!!!!

biggrin hi people! well i've been thinking recently (it was quite painful stressed ) one of Jesus famous sayings is 'if your right eye offends you then pluck it out and throw it away, better to loose one part of your body then all of it be cast into hell' thats put simpley. basically he says if you arent happy about something in/on your body then do something drastic to change it -mabey not as drastic as actually taking out your eye but you get the picture!

Long story cut short God told me (in my head) to do a 24 hour famine.
so today i have not eaten since 6.00 am when i woke up, technically i havent eaten since 7.00pm yesterday but that doesnt count.
The point of this is because i am not used to relying on God to get me through life, Christians are told to rely on God but i was mainly relying on myself so on the basis of the eye plucking story i took drastic action. Hopefully i will have learnt to fully rely on God (FROG) to provide for me. ive only told 2 people about this, my boyfriend James, and Jess, my angel. i copied out this verse for inspiration:

'Jesus said ''my food is to do what the one who sent me wants me to do and to finish his work. you have a saying ' four months till harvest' but i tell you open your eyes and look at the fieldsready to harvest now'

To those of you who know me Bexi said i was absent today, as in:
absent-not all there.
And that was why, i had harly any energy and my concentration was Zero, also i was trying to focus on God so now you know why i wasnt all there today. ok.

Suzy if your reading, why were you giving me weird looks today?
Did anyone else notice that?