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So here I am again on gaia, not sure for how long this time. I started playing the blackjack game a couple days ago and now I'm back. I gave some stuff away, kept some others and bought some house stuff. Man I really love that cheap house trinkets you can get, gonna be tweaking my house for a while now.
I had a breathing attack the other night, thought I was going to die, when I could breathe again I started crying in relief. Huge sobs wracked my body and the nurse was a real b***h but oh well.
I love that it's getting close to fall now, I might be feeling short of breath and a little miserable but at least it smells nice.

Tomorrow Novem arrives, for a six month stay, I bought a new bed yesterday and it should arrive today, both of us are really nervous for some reason, even though we've been together twice before. Never this long though, but mum admits the last time she was here it didn't seem like she was here long enough.
I'm thinking of making an appointment with a career counselor at the community college about the easiest way to get my GED, my goal is to have that by christmas.
We're going to see the Ring Two tomorrow as well, super excited about that and I gt a new job that's working out pretty well. Its fast food but man are the people nice. My dad got a job, and even my sister's got a job interview tomorrow.
Everything seems to be working out, here's hoping it stays that way. ^_^

So the theatre went without a hitch(Unless you count one of my actors breaking the coconut prop but it was mildewed inside and NARSTY gonk )
It looks like I'll be doing set paining for a mainstage production of a play called "The Sunshine Boys" next. My birthday is in nine days now! Soon I'll be twenty one. I'm excited!
My friend Krysil has been having trouble with a MOD and I just found out she's leaving gaia for a while sad From the sound of things he was unjust and all around rather unprofessional, I wish she'd tried talking to another mod. It was over something as silly as a signature photo supposedly it was 4pixels too big on one side. FOUR PIXELS. I mean I know a rule is a rule, but he treated her really badly.
Overall my day has been crummy. More job-hunting to raise money for the marrige ceremony this summer. I'm thinking of becoming a nurse too, but my goal for right now is to get my GED and go from there.

Recently I've been working as stage manager for a locally written play in my area. Tonight is opening night. The play is only twenty minutes to a half hour depending on smooth transtion and we're one of three groups but I'm still very proud. Even though I don't get to go on stage and I'm a little disappointed that I didn't get an acting part, I'm still happy to be involved and there's auditions on tuesday for another play, so here's hoping for a part in that one, though if they asked me to be a part of the crew, I think I'd still help out.
I'd really like a part though.. I'll be third tree from the left just like the milk commercial!!

Holy, CRAP my feet hurt.....
And that's all I have to say about that.
gonk
Will elaborate(perhaps) after some serious R&R

Crap we went out to dinner and I think I missed Moni's call @.@
Well, she might call back later and I was hungry!
I have my first Temmari commission and personally, I think it sucks. ugh commissions are so much harder, you don't get to just draw freely you have a set standard and it suuucks. Oh well, this whole Temmari thing is to improve my art so I can't give up ^_^;;

I won an art contest last night!
I also found a fox of luck and got fifty gold, on top of that we received out first customer.
We'll be lowering our prices to 2.1k until we get busy and I might want to draw Kanbei and Kyouzou from Samurai7 to sell as auctions.
I found the doushikai thread too! XD
I heart Ogre berrah berrah much.

Short journal entry for today but I need some more sleep, just made Pam breakfast and then I have to call rentals men later on gonk woe ish me but we might be moving, its kinda exciting. redface

As I write this I feel slightly numb but full of emotions at the same time. Gaia probably isn't the best place to write about this but I have a firm beleive that everything written was meant to be seen and since no one checks my deadjournal(not that I blame them I never update) hee seems the best choice.
I just returned from the airport, I dropped Monica off. Stayed as long as I could before we had to leave. I would have watched her plane take off if I could have, but dad needed to go home, it was six am and he hadn't slept.

I can't beleive seven weeks went by the way it did, there's so many things we didn't do, but I suppose its always that way. You think you have all the time in the world and its like, you blink and you're packing up to catch your flight.

Man if I thought leaving her in california was bad, it was even harder to watch her leave.
It wasn't enough time for me, but I suppose it never will be unless she stays for good.
The room seems so big now, even though its always been tiny, and even though the cats are bed hogs it'll feel empty for the first few days. I knew going into this it wouldn't last but it was everything to me when it did.

I suppose I should go to bed, it'll be akward if I'm still up with blurry red and irritated eyes when Pam gets up, but I'm just not sure I'm ready to face the empty bed.
Then again the sooner I go to bed, the sooner morning will come. If I keep telling myself that sooner or later time will pass and she'll come back, or I'll go there and one day maybe there won't have to be a day where I have to say good-bye for so long...

Where the hell has all the time gone?
Don't tell me its been seven weeks already. Not that anyone knows, but my most important person came to visit in October. Seven weeks seems like a long time then, but now that its actually over its didn't seem long at all.
I feel kinda numb, I don't think its really hit me yet, but come tuesday when I have to take her to the airport I'm not sure I'll be able to hold back the tears.
I'm gonna miss her alot, more than anyone knows. I don't want her to leave but I guess its a decision we've made a long time ago without really thinking.
She needs her mom and Pam right now and I really can't move again, I moved too much as a kid and I think I'm settled now, its frustrating but we went years without meeting. I guess I just have to beleive that she'll come back.