Yesterday.. I was walking the streets of downtown Tacoma looking for my meeting.. in desperation and tears I found myself lost in front of this beautiful marble entry way.. I pause looking up at the arches and for the first time in a long time attempt to make an entrance into a holy place. The doors were locked.. most unfortuitous thusly I rang the bell.. Standing there with the warm sun on my back tears streaming down my pink cheeks as I clung to my purse. I was the image of a woman in pain.. a woman distraugnt in desperate need of guidance... a woman in need of..
"Excuse me" I say..
The.. being the ladies of the church come hudling around me, hands caressing my arms telling me that everything will be okay..
The the Pastor come out.. touches my cheek in the most gentle of ways and says..
"my dear what is wrong" his speech was soft muddled with years of profound hearing loss..
My reply was simple.. "I am not in need of sanctuary Father.. I am just lost.. "
His..
"Most who come are lost child.."
Me..
"no seriously.. I am not sure where I am at.. where is the Tacoma Rhodes Center?"
The look of pure disapointment did not escape me.. as they told me it was around the block..
Apparently I was not the angel that they were to save that day..
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Sanctuary..
A safe place..
I was indeed in need of one, but not at that moment
I was unaware of fates conspiracies
Of lifes gentle hand that weighs so heavily in momentary crisis
Driven by saddness I sought it out
the warm caress of love
I wanted to hear that I was worthy of devotion
that the tides were pulled by the strength of my love
I sought out refudge in the place I had once lost
only to hear the foul discontent
of one so dear
broken.. I fell tumbling
wanting to feel the pit of my self despair
why did I think I was so deserving
my vanity overshadowed
A lingering want left unmet
a toubled heart eager for one soft word
alone in my head I cried
heard only by one
cradled in loving hands
beloved words of one so dear
the angel in the house of sanctuary
save me from myself
 Fayeline · Sat Oct 21, 2006 @ 05:51pm · 0 Comments |
