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I'm tired. Hell, I'm not even tired, I'm damn tired. Of what? Everything. Tired of failing. Tired of being lazy. Tired of being a bad friend. Tired of having a short attention span. Tired of waiting for someone. Tired of feeling down. Tired at failing at guitar. Tired at failing at life. Tired of being yelled at by my parents. Tired of comforting my friends. Tired of talking to people who don't care for me. Tired of being emotionless. Tired of sympathy, kindness. Tired of regret. Tired of being shy. Tired of being a little brother. Why the hell can't I be the big brother? Or maybe the leading figure. Instead of the person that people just use and throw aside, as if I were some cheap toy. I can understand people, and their motives. I can see deeper in someone than they can see themselves. Why can't people see me as a person? I have my limits. I have a breaking point. I get lonely. I get frustrated and angry. I get bored. I get inspired. I get bored. I become depressed. No one sees that. I try to show it, but I just can never seem to find the words or strength. Maybe I don't trust people. Maybe I'm not the great guy everyone seems to think I am. Maybe I'm struggling as much as you may think you are, or even worse. Maybe I don't want to continue on. Maybe I don't think life is living for. Maybe I'm blinded by my desires. There are so many "maybes" in my life. Should I really risk it all?

All I know is...
I get tired.
P/M