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Hello Fellow viewer's Sorry I have been gone for about a week now I think. I'v been having trouble with Sora and now Axel ...I just don't know what to do...but anyway about this last week. I don't think I have word's that fit how weird/epic/awsome/bad, this week has been. Fist off, I went to Sora and asked him why he was ignoring me now. I mean I know I had been pretty pissed at him for the whole Mick thing and we had that big fight before but that doesn't give him the right to just ignore me. I don't understand what his deal is.

I went and asked Kairi about it and she said that Sora has be acting weird ever since I moved in with Axel. I didn't get why that of all things would upset Sora. I mean I would have thought that Kairi would be the one upset about me getting a boyfriend and moving in with him. I don't think Sora would be one to have those kind of feelings for me. He's in love with Kairi and everyone knows it. So after I talked to Kairi I went home to talk with Axel about it. When I talked to him about what was going on between me and Sora he said "Sometime's people can fall in love and never relize it till its far to late." Axel always had a way with words but why did he have to be so charming now of all times? I need to fix things with Sora. You see, I'v always loved Sora, I never told him because I knew he liked Kairi. I never blamed him or hated him for it. After all he was the "normal" one, at least that's what my dad tell's me. I'v never had many frinends. Sora and Kairi are really all I have, I don't want to lose Sora or Kairi. This is really freaking me out.

So i went back again the next day to talk to him again but his (Hot) mom told me that he wasn't there, that he had went out with Demyx. I didn't even know Sora and Demyx were friends...How come I didn't know this?!?!? Anyway, I let it go and went home for that day. I went again the next day and the day after that. Both time's Sora's (Hot) Mom told me that the first day he was out with Demyx, The second zexion and third larxene. Why was he hanging out with these nobodies. (not being rude, thats what they are) First off Demyx? really? I know bigs smarter then Demyx. Second zexion is a twilight reading, emo being, wrist cutting freak. And I just don't know what to say about him hanging out with Laexene...I thought he had more pride in himself then that but oh well.

Anyway after the fith day of looking for him, I found him. I cornered him (no really i got him into a corner then held him on the wall so he couldn't run away from me this time) I asked him why he was ignore me and why he hated Axel so much now, I also asked him why he was hanging out with people he never really liked to start with. That's when he started crying. I felt so bad for yelling at him like I did. The last thing i ever want to do is hurt Sora.

I was so shocked to see someone as strong as Sora cry. I had never seen him cry like that. It hurt so much to know i'm the one who made him cry. When I tried to clam him, he just kapted saying how sorry he was...I couldn't take it so I told him the truth of why i was so mad that he wouldn't talk to me or even look at me...He took he really well...like really really well...As in I may have to break up with Axel. Damn It!!! Is it wrong to be in love with two people at the same time? I Don't know what to do anymore and i'm scared of losing ether one of them. Why did things have to become this hard.