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as i lay in my bed i sit up with tears rolling down my cheeks i lean over and breing back a razer...i hold it in my hand as i look at it and study it i stop and think about the rapeing, beating,yalling,fighting and deaths why most i stay here if this is what i have to look frowred to my hole life i place the razer to my wrist touching the cold razer to my skin i look up to the roof in thought about a god if there is a god what wound he say what if he is watching how sad he wound be then i look down thinking then there is a devil and how he most be enjoying this...i take a deep breath as i press down hard on the razer as slide it down as soon as i do this i feel the blood run down my hand to my finger tips as i drop the razer i lay back down i drop my hand off the bed as i feel the blood flow down as i listen i hear it splater agenst the floor over and over agen as is grow faniter and faniter i fail into a deep sleep as i wake i see a light...