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I hate this. I'm so fed up with it all. If iwas stupid i would have killed myself already. But i feel i have a meaning to live.
(explaining why i feel how i feel)
Three years ago my father started drinking alot. Within the next year and a half He had been arrested 4 times for drinking. 3 of them for d.u.i.'s and 1 for driving with out privileges. Then about 6 months after that i got moved to live with my grandparents and aunt in a different city. I cried. I was so scared that i would be made fun of and everyone would hate me, like at my old school. But i met some one. He ended up being my best friend and the person im dating right now. He was talking to one of his friends about videogames (of all things) and i told him i liked videogames to. From that day we have been friends. The next year we were best friends. We knew all of each others secrets. He asked me who i liked, i said no one. Though it was a lie i didn't want him to know i liked him. He told me another girl. I was personally crushed. So i did all i could to be the best friend he would ever have. It payed off i guess. We were outside during lunch talking and he asked me this: Do you think we should start dating? I mean everyone thinks were dating anyways... Me: i don't know...I think we should...Him: Alright.

.-. i dont know why im still depressed o-e...