Not like anyone cares but it explains my attidude lately and how I am my life completely sucks a** but other people have worse proven I'm not emo or goth by that one statement. Welp here friends and weirdos who wanna read:-
It started off in Kindrgarten.
I was a little girl but taller than the rest, I was called emo and gothic people said I failed grades and pushed me around like a little runt. I didn't know what the words ment I just liked wearing purple and red I wasn't really offended but I found out what they ment... I started to cry thinking "How? Am I? I can't be! noNoNO I CAN'T BE! NOTHING LIKE THAT" a spiral in my mind formed and I was confused from that day on everyone teased me and hurt me I'm not sure why I never told anyone though but here you go world I'm screaming it out for you to hear!
Grade one.
I wore black, blue, and purple I didn't care about much I was VERY violent especially with words... In anime wise I was like Kyo from Fruits Basket. I was pushed around like a rag doll everyone ditched me.
Grade two.
I was very short tempered and frustrated with work so I ended up drawing they sucked but I was young and I didn't have much practice it seemed to calm me down ALOT! And I had no friends I spent my time sitting against a wall watching others... Again anime wise I would be Kisa from Fruits Basket.
Grade three.
I was calmer but I didn't have any friends. I started wearing white and green camo I seemed to like it. But then this girl Amanda came... There was hell staring right at me! She was small but bad with words made everyone hate me even teachers I was left all alone...
Grade four.
Amanda taunted me and made my life a living hell I even cried (which is bad because I don't cry regularly on basis) Noone stood up for me and I guess I was too frightened to do anything... But then came a day....
The end of the school year Amanda was completely pissing me off I even got back into swearing... I swung my arm with a clutched fist and threw right at her little demented face (no not really ugly) I didn't hit on purpose (Heh not) so I said but she put her hands up and scratched my knuckles they blead... I was in s**t from then everyone thinking that I was such a bad kid because of that... But I never hit her everyone went on her side and believe her.. (If I really did hit her she'd have to go to the hostpital )
Grade five.
Alone teased usual all of the others put together but heh... I had turned bad.. Being an a** to my teacher like now I beat up sorry losers and protected weak I changed my mood I was called bad names I didn't like to be touched if yo touched me you would be hurt BAD! I took Karate got to a yellow belt the first two months or somethin' pretty good I use those techniques still... I turned into a delinquent but never caught good of me eh? I am real good at lieing hehhehheh... I don't git angry on the internet I am like Hatsuharu from Fruits Basket but I have a white grey and black side I am the albino black child.... White I'm a little cutie hyper retard Grey I act like a gothic no emotion at all Black... Hehheh don't mess with this I turn pale and when I'm pitched my eyes turn into such a light brown they're red hehheh don't believe me who the hell cares!? The meening for "Albino" I turn pale hehheh.... I wore white and black only and yeah... I'm messed but not exactly hating my life... AT ALL!!!!
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I'm too frickin' lazy to type anymore =_=
 !xXHiei BlackXx! · Sat Feb 17, 2007 @ 08:52pm · 0 Comments |
