TURNED DOWN THE VERGE
I left Gaia once, thinking that the lot of you would ever forget about me, just like some other friend you may have met but never got the time to know. That feeling almost came back to me tonight. I had that thought about leaving you all for good, for your sakes and mine. I thought maybe it's just better this way. And I say that for many reasons, probably because I'm so much older than you, despite me having acouple of older friends, myself. But I won't leave.
Over the course of many years, I've grown attached to many on my list I'm glad to call true friends. They always listen, they always respond no matter how long it takes, and they always care. But there is one friend that I have come to cherish close to my heart more than anyone else in the God for saken internet.
It's because of her, I was able to find out what real love felt like again. just saying hello to her sent my heart in a feeding frenzy of emotions that I have not felt in a long time. Oh how I wish to feel that love again; I wish I could have her back into my life! Sometimes, I can still remember the first day we met, the games we played, the talks we had, and the bond that we shared. It was precious to us both, and we wanted it to last forever. But one fateful day changed it all. And to say goodbye was probably the hardest thing for either of us to do. It left a void in my soul for a time, but gradually I would overcome this pain. And now, here I stand today, in hopes of meeting her again someday, or at least hope to find someone new to show me that feeling again.But if I had to choose one of the two, it would be time for me to move on. Plenty of fish in the sea, but only one will be the real catch of the day, one I wish to never throw back.
So the answer to you is- I'm not gonna leave Gaia. I was about to, but something inside changed my mind. Thanks.
