In the past week, some tragic, life altering things have happened. Last Thursday, December 6, 2007 my grandfather Francis Taber passed away. This is my first time dealing with the death of a loved one, I mean yeah, I've lost pets..but a person, who you loved, let me tell you, is a lot harder to deal with than I thought. Last night, was his wake and today was his funeral. This was my first time going to either. It was so, so hard. The funeral home smelled like they were trying to cover up death with flowers, and when we went into the room where my grandfather lay, in his coffin, dresed in a suit but not a tie because he told my grandma he would haunt us for the rest of out lives if we did dress him in a tie, with a flag over him, crosses surrounding him, I couldn't bear to look at him. I did, but..just to see someone you love so much, who you hugged just a few months before, who was so full of life, lying cold in a coffin, not moving, not breathing..I just couldn't take it. And when I saw my grandmother and my uncles and my dad, sitting or standing next to him I just couldn't control myself, I just started sobbing uncontrollably. That was how I was the whole night. I sat with my grandma for a while, she held my hand and told me it was going to be okay. When my mom and I had gotten there I was so nervous I was shaking. A lot of people showed up to pay their respects. I met so many people in my family, I knew it was big, but I didn't know it was that big. I got so many hugs, it was kind of..weird..but in a good way. My cousins were all there and all of my uncles. I've never been around everyone before. It was kind of nice, if you didn't consider why we were all together. Then today was the funeral. That was so much harder than I expected. When I paid my last respects I was so...I don't know, I can't explain it. ;~; I cried a whole lot today. We ran out of tissues actually.. ._.; My cousin Kim kissed my grandpa when she paid her last respects, my mom told me it made her feel a release. I guess that's true. Then we went to the church, to cry some more. They sang a lot, and talked about my grandpa. Then we went to the cemetary my grandpa is buried right with my brother Joseph, he had a military burial thingy where they played the trumpet and folded the flag over his coffin all specialandstuffs. Then before we left we paid our lastlast respects by touching his coffin. Then we went to my Uncle Tommy's house for..food and comfort. A lot more hugs, I sat with my grandma most of the time. And I played with Layla, the latest addition to the Taber family she's adorable. :'D So, in short, the past couple of days have been very hard. But I've finally accepted he's gone, and that he's in a better place, not suffering anymore, that makes me feel..a lot better.
RIPGrandpa
12.18.1923-12.06.2007. < 3
I love you.
RIPGrandpa
12.18.1923-12.06.2007. < 3
I love you.
