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Erhem, I have to re-write this again so its not as emotional xD.

Anyways I just wanted to say that Saturday night was one of THE greatest times of my life, and I am very happy I got to spend that time with you. I never thought in my lifetime that one of my dreams would come true, and it did =] .

(Please keep in mind I'm writing this to get it all out of my chest...and its what I really feel so...don't be creeped out xD)

When we talked I thought it would just end with us going "...bleh lets just do it again" BUT!
We didn't and I really appreciate that. 'Stead we talked and it got into our own personal flaws; our strengths and our weaknesses. I have gain so much from that conversation and I will never forget it in my life.

Then we went to the roof and star-gazed...then I got tar on my Favorite shirt...(Stupid-a**, freaking roof, motherfockin..xD) but that still didn't get me down!
I realize that we can't always be serious and it really is unhealthy. (I asked people today if they noticed something different about me and they all said "You where a hella of a lot funner!" wink I get my new strength from you...we went back in and I layed on your side as I grasped your arm, you know those moments you wished would last forever? Well that was mine. And when it was almost time for you to go, you didn't get sad or anything! (Either you really didn't care or you where just trying to be tough...I hope its the second one xD)

All you did was look up at the celing and smiled. Your heart rate was a good beat and for a few moments... in synch with mine.

You asked me if I knew that song and I said I didn't know, I asked you to sing it for me and you kept refusing. The you looked down with your mysterious glare and said "One more kiss, then I have to go" (<--- Those words are intergrated into my brain)

We waited outside, I looked out in the distance and you asked about the song again, I said I still didn't remember...then while I was looking away you began to softly sing.

...ErHEM! Fernando! Next time I get back you better keep up! just because you won this time doesn't mean it'll be the same!!! ...Fernando you where my first Love, and I hope the best for you and your future.
(BUT! this isn't a farewell note so you'd better keep in touch!!! I'll have Christi 3 way yo a** so you better be ready to talk!!)