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I am unsure of my vocation in life right now, to be quite honest. I have learnt all I need to know from the kind doctor whose clinic I have newly left; with these skills under my belt, I am certain that I shall be able to have a self-sufficient existence - that is, if I do not succeed in my endeavours to become a person of importance within this godforsaken society.
I have newly come across some very interesting findings, that perhaps threaten all I know and hold dear, some sort of scandal upon my family's good name, which shall not be written here for fear of being exposed. I should not like to sully the name of my dear forefathers any more than these rumours already have. As such, I have taken to wandering about for the time being. It is amazing what good looks and money will do in the way of lodging. I have been quite fortunate as to gain quite good shelter at very affordable rates, no doubt thanks to the smitten scullery maid and the female owner. I do not seek any relation with them, of course, but it is good to maintain civility. I daresay I shall be in need of it soon enough.
Kiene · Wed Mar 25, 2009 @ 03:19pm · 0 Comments |
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A long-awaited return, perhaps. |
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Quite some time, a considerable amount, I must say, has passed since I last deigned to write. There has been little major that has changed; I still live alone, and exist in all self-sufficiency. I am now studying the anatomy of domestic animals; I am an apprentice to a veterinarian who has kindly offered me a place within his business. It seems rather profound, to be taking up such a scientifically-inclined career. I have always thought myself rather more partial to the arts. Still, it is a pleasant job, for the most part - I have found myself to be quite brave when it comes to the sight of blood - but often I do not find my composure holding when it comes to putting the animals down. The philosophical part of my mind questions the humanity of this. A pity humanity does not often have much of a place within the world.
Kiene · Thu Jan 03, 2008 @ 05:32am · 0 Comments |
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I am alone for now, at least for the time being - although part of me, somehow, wishes to seek out some sort of destiny that doesn't involve me being alone. It is a strange notion, I have never thought about this as a possibility. It is becoming apparent that my books alone might not satisfy me. Disturbing, but I shall certainly have to get used to it if I long to be at ease with myself.
Admittedly I am not the easiest of persons, and I know my shortcomings all too well - I have been reminded of them quite often by my cousins, who pride themselves, amongst other things, to have next to nothing in the way of vocabulary. I did not bother to argue with them. After all, it is pointless to engage in babble with apes, I should think.
Kiene · Sun Oct 15, 2006 @ 01:33pm · 0 Comments |
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I have received a few days ago a proclamation from the man who likes to call himself my father. I am to be bethrothed to a man I do not know. I am quite surprised, truth be told, that the revelation of my orientation is known to my father, and even more so that he does not seem to be against it. He has engaged me to three fiances before, all of which were female - but I do not wish to speak of them. They are in the past, and the past should be left to lie in its own dust.
I have met this man only once, and he seems to be of a character as strong as my own. I shall certainly give him a hard time that he will never forget. Perhaps he will give up on me and leave, like the three girls did. Or perhaps he will stay. I do not know. I only know that father would not be happy at all if I drove him away. It seems that I must put up with him for awhile, at least.
Other than that, there is not much news. Such is my life.
Kiene · Thu Apr 20, 2006 @ 12:29pm · 0 Comments |
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I don't suppose I'll get a chance to speak much about myself, in the course of my Gaian existence. It is rare that others should want to know more about the person they speak to, unless it be someone whose pants they are trying to explore. A hardly honorable mission, that, if I might say so, but to some it is worth it.
My name, to the uninitiated, is Kiene. It is what I would like to be known by, seeing as the full form of my name - Kiene Alexis Cephiril le Fienne - is too long for those who know me to constantly repeat, and too frightening for those who meet me for the first time. I shall soon be 17, and thus, I am still assigned to the instituition of education which I must resign myself till, until adulthood.
I do not fear to say that I am very stubborn. I like having my own way, especially where relationships are concerned. I am not afraid, as well, to admit that I find myself more drawn to men than women. It is a fact that is thought of as sacrilege in many societies, the thought of two men being together - but I care not in the least about what they might think. I envy the man who will be able to keep me under his thumb, wind me around his little finger. I might be what some would call a "uke" - although I have my dominant moments - but at the same time, I do not suscribe to the notion of whining, feminine actions. I am not afraid to speak my mind to my lover, and woe betide him if he thinks that he can tame me as though any other uke. I will certainly give him a hard time. Perhaps even drive him mad.
I enjoy my studies most of the time, particularly those of the Literature and Art sector. When I am not in school, I prefer to spend my time at cafes - preferably those with chocolate eclairs on the menu. I live alone, most of the time, although I am not desperate for company. Most of the time, anyway. For humans are designed to feel the need for company.
This is all that I have to say for now. To most this is but a weaving of uninteresting nibbles about my life. But I hope that at least a few will read it and perhaps gain an insight as to me, as a person. Perhaps. For a human is hard to understand.
Kiene · Tue Apr 18, 2006 @ 02:15pm · 0 Comments |
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