Yeah, schools been great, so has life. I've had a lot of time to think... I'm not really sure why but I regret a lot of actions in my life, and some I am glad of doing. I regret losing two of my close friends, even though we still drifted I love them like I did in the past, they just can't know that.
I'm having a new step-dad really soon, he seems nice, I haven't really had the chance to meet him yet though. He re-did my whole room by taking out the carpet, and painting the walls and such, so I'm getting spoiled there... but I feel like I don't want it.
Well I'm going to finish school a year early, doing a summer program in college to get out of my junior year. It seems okay... No offense, I love my life right now and all, I feel like everything is perfect. But as if right now, I feel like its too perfect. Today has been like the happy day, but I still feel upset. I laughed a lot, hung around with my friends, but I still feel like everything is too perfect.
It's mainly my AP english class making me think, we get the quotes everyonce and awhile from famous old english authors and we have to think about what they mean by it. (AP stands for Advanced Placement). God I'm even getting straight A's... but I don't see why to hate it, I liked it when I made more flaws. I guess my past friendships that messed up is just constantly on my mind now. One was a really good friend of mine, I've known her for over a year, we even met in gaia. I tried to do something, more like hook her up without her knowing and having her think it was something else, we both got mad, now we never speak.
I'm getting really into my chinese background too. Also into a lot of YinYang and just really logical stuff, not that most people know of though. I write a lot of poetry now, and I'm getting better in my artwork too. I'm also training myself by using my Graphic Communications class in high school to learn how to use photoshop better. I want to learn how to make amazing multimedia videos as well, but I haven't been able to find the right program.
Yeah, I kind of wrote a lot, to those who read please comment. I might do this a little more, more like having a talk with myself. Thanks to those who stops by, I'll try to update it tomorrow and not toss it aside.
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