Soo, it has been a while. We meet again Mr. Journal surprised
Okay, Freshman year is over...and it has been a month and a few days since school has ended. I started going out with this one guy Cristian... he's extremely sweet. Yet, i swear he pms's alot lol. [harhar] He makes me smile. He says he loves my smile and that it makes him feel warm :] [but i have braces..wth?]
Yeah, but we can have our awesome times together. Yet he can put me down kinda easily too.. idk if he tries to but he does it anyway. Its those tiny little things too.. those tiny little remarks that just get u deep inside those brain noodles. So yeah lets say i get 'hurt' alot. But.. thats like when we're far apart. But u know... when we're together, it's amazingly fun. Its like we forget about our problems and we have a great time. My family loves him..apparently so does my dog hhaha. He says he loves me, and i'm the greatest thing that has happened to him all year. Yeah, he's had a terrible year and i know it. He's kinda made my year as well :]
So.. just recently [couple hours] i got in a fight with what i THOUGHT was a close friend of mine.. Manny
This guy was special, what i thought i could go to for help.. and he was! He was totally there for me. And i've hardly known the guy for a couple months and we were like BEST bud's..i mean BEST. I always went to him when i would feel let down by Cristian. And he helped. He wasnt like other guys. Hes pretty much the sweetest guy i . . . knew. Now, idk if i can trust him. I mean, i understand the fact he's not fond of Cristian...cause i only went to him for the bad stuff, u know? He doesnt know bout the between moments of googooness. I would telll him, ive tried, but idk how to describe it. Soo Manny's been ticked off and using harsh language to describe Cristian -.-'' He's been telling me things like 'how could i stay with a guy that hurts u so much' and i just sat in silence. The things that Manny said to me made me PARTLY believe that... he was right. And that Cristian was the bad guy. And i thought that Manny had liked me, and there was a small fraction of a chance that if i dumped Cristian..Manny would be..there for me..in all ways possible. And that maybe i could give HIM a chance. But now, i've come to ONE conclusion.
ALL GUYS ARE JERKS NO MATTER WHAT THEY FREAKIN SEEM!
Turns out that well, he never ment that stuff. He got ticked tonight cause i wouldnt leave Cristian. And hes been calling me b***h, Whore, Slut..and other such things. Apparently im not allowed in his life anymore...till i dump Cristian.
OH, and its not just Manny who dont like Cristian. Pretty much most some of my friends arn't fond of him either. But its the same thing...they just dont know him. And wont TRY to get to know him :[
Cristian's a really sweet guy. Hes straight forward. I've seen him with his close friends and.. hes just like Manny. or what manny was. Cristian tries to be the good guy, and help with problems even though if he's got some going on as well.
i'm just so confused..
cry
View User's Journal
!!boredness!!
 |
