Depression effects every one in 10 teens between the ages of 12 and 19. One in every 20 adults between 20 and 35. One in every 30 adults between the ages 36 and 50, And on in every 40 adults 51+. Suddenly this has effected me. Well, Atleased I'm told. All of a suddenly I started crying, I felt like this life was not worth living and that there was nothing I could do to improve my life anymore. I just gave up and I cried. I didn't eat, I didn't sleep, I didn't do anything. Just sat at home. Alone. And cried. I didn't tell anyone about it, I blocked everyone out, Nobody could help. At school, I cried. At home, I cried. When I went out, I cried and had to end up going home and leaving everything behind. Life for me was not worth living. It was.. In on word... s**t. Everything around me faded and everybody trying to help didn't exist any more. My loved ones were neglected and my freinds were completely shut out of my life. I went to school today and just cried. Teachers walked past and asked me if I needed an help.. I stared straight through them as if nothing mattered. People tried to make me laugh, it didn't work. My best friend didn't care. The thing I didn't notice was how many people I was hurting around me. But I guess when you're in the state I am you don't notice much. Everything faded, I was left in my own little world of black. Someone suggested listen to music. But, When most of your music is either screaming and kicking or sad and emo it sort of makes you more upset. This depression thing hasn't gotten to seriouse for me..Yet. I force fed myself at dinner, Even though I didn't feel like eating I ate.. I still block people out and am said to "Hide behind anger". I am not a violent person. I have never killed anyone. I have only fought people in self defence. I have the reputation as "The scary girl rom hell" But that's not me. So many things could have set me off the edge. The fact I'm too far behind in school work, I have been getting ignored, My dad doesn't call me any more, Darren [My mums boyfriend] Has moved in and has the chicken pox, My mum is spending more time with darren than me and Tyler [My brother], I have had to look after my 7 year old brother for about 2 months now because my mum's too busy, Mostly family home poblems and the fact that at school I also get ignored most of the time. But the result will usually always be the same.. "Depression is a seriouse problem and should be looked after not looked over." As said by a teacher.
 Simply Retarded · Wed Nov 08, 2006 @ 08:12am · 0 Comments |
