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Looking For Love In All The Right Places, But Still Coming Up Empty Handed.

Dearest Interweb,

They say there's someone for everyone, right? Well I'm starting to think that whoever "they" are, "they're" filthy rotten liars. I know not to expect some kind of unconditional love, I expect a relationship that I will have to work at, but one that will ultimately make me happy. Every time I meet a girl, either I'm interested in her, or she's interested in me. It's only been mutual once, and that turned sour cuz I'm a jack a**. I just wanna meet that special someone who can pick up my slack when I run out of steam, and I can do the same for her. Someone who I can spend hours just holding in my arms, someone who can kick my a** at smash brothers (which is by no means a difficult feat), someone that, if given forever to spend with them, it still wouldn't be enough time...That special someone is out there somewhere... I just hope I can find her, and that I haven't already missed her.

Till next time, thanks for listening.

Tura Sinclair.

Dearest Interweb,

Ugh, ya know? I mean, seriously, UGH! Sorry, I'm probably just confusing you. Ya ever have one of those days where you feel sick, but not in a stomach hurting or queazy or headache or sore in places kinda sick, just kind of a sick feeling, and you're always really tired? That's how I feel today...and it's just....UGH! Anyway, doctor says I have mono, but my throat doesn't hurt, so I'm ok in that regard, just totally out of energy. And for some reason, nothing really appeals to/interests me today. Everything just looks so boring...oh well. I'm on my own against this problem, but I just needed somewhere to talk about it. That's where you come in, interweb journal readers. Even if you're not there, I still have the illusion that there are people online who are looking at this and saying, "Aw....Poor guy....I hope he feels better soon..." It's not the pity I want, but the concern, the interest in my life. The fact that there COULD be people out there who take great interest in my journal really makes me feel a little bit better.

Till next time, whatever. I dunno.

Dearest Interweb,

I don't know where that title came from. just sounded cool I guess. Anyway, I've been thinking alot lately about the state of the world, but then I decided that the world bores me, so I've been thinking more about my friends, cuz they're interesting. I've been wondering, if I never meet them, can they really be considered friends? they're fun to talk to, but I've really never even met them. We talk about some pretty deep stuff, but I think it's because it's much easier to say all of these things to a machine than to a person's face. After going over it, I've decided that even though people have told me you can't really trust that you know someone as well as you think you do when they're online, doesn't mean that you can trust the friends you know in person any more than the ones on the net.

Till next time, keep your chin up, keep your dreams alive, and for god's sake, cover yourself, man!

Tura Sinclair

Dearest Interweb,

I've always liked to think of myself as a romantic. I'm not, but I've always liked to think of myself as one. it's a bit stupid when I think about it. I've never been on a date, I've only had one relationship and it ended up crashing and burning. Hell, I've never even kissed a girl. I'm terrible at relationships. Ironically, I give good relationship advice. I'll still probably think of myself as a romantic, that won't change, but I do feel a little bit better about myself for saying this.

Until next time, keep your chin up, your dreams alive, and for god's sake, cover yourself, man!

Tura Sinclair