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Well, the Last Mimzy rocked =^-^= A big plus was going to see it with Luke. Anyway, I'm (hopefully) going to be hanging out with Sarah this weekend, so life is good =^-^=

Well, I had an AWESOME time with Sarah, and now I get to spend time with Dan, Lexy and maybe Megan. Luke already had plans... which made me sad, becuase I haven't seen him for like... a week... but it'll be fun seeing my other friends =^-^=

Well, no one ever checks this, so I don't feel bad posting here. I'm getting fat (again) so I've gone back on my old diet, and started working out again, only problem? I want an exersize partner. I'm working on mom getting me a membership at the local gym, but until then I'm just doing my workouts at home, and it gets lonely. Most of my workouts are designed to build flexability and balance, and before I start on any weight training stuff I want someone to spot me...
Oh well... I guess I'm just tired of being all alone so much. I listen to people at school, and hear all the other girls getting compliments, but I don't ever seem to get any... No one ever tells me I'm pretty (Since I'm not) I generally don't get any recognition what so ever...

One of my friends wants me to star in a music video for her, which I don't really mind. One of the only things I'm actually proud of is my dancing (to some degree) I've never really been trained (Appart from ballet and tap when I was little and some classes at school) but I love moving to music, and I love dancing in general, but I never have a chance too. I mean, I stopped going to school dances (I don't ever have anyone to go with, and I usually end up hiding in the girl's bathroom and crying) so it's been a while since anyone has seen me dance. And the one thing I like more than dancing on my own? Is dancing with someone else.

I guess dancing is just one more of my "touching problems." According to my doctor, he's never seen such a shy touch oriented person. But... that's how I am. With my friends... I want nothing more than to be touched. Holding hands, sitting on peoples laps, hugging, it's all perfectly natural for me, but I don't do it, because I'm terrified of what they'll think...

I was talking to one of my friends yesterday, and told him I was afraid of talking to people. But that's not really true. What I'm really afraid of is rejection. It's been happening to me all my life, family and friends... And when I talk to people, when I put myself out there, tell people I like them, I always end up getting hurt...

Mew? How is everyone? Mew?

My friends are back from camp! YAY!!!!! 4laugh 3nodding

Trying to drink anything while watching Monty Python skits is impossible.... 3nodding sweatdrop

There, now that I got that out =^-^= So far for my plans in the coming week... I have no clue 0-0''' I know Friday night/Saturday morning is going to be spent hanging out with me best friend (who's going to boarding school) but other than that, my friends are free to kidnap me as they see fit 3nodding

I hate power outages, I really hate power outages...

Well, my quests are going well, life isn't sucking too much, I got to talk to my best friend last night and I've gotten my entire class addicted to Europop =^-^= Not bad for this early in the morning!