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i dont get it.
you probably dont understand why you being with your friends and other people bothers me so damn much.
its probably because of all those stories you so effortlesly brag about.
No. i know what it is.
You change when youre around them. You change when youre around anyone you feel you should impress.
Which is everyone....
when i go out of town with my family, you make me promise not to drink or fall back into old habits like my avid pot smoking. i keep my promise.
but not even a day after i leave town, you get with my friend and your ex, drink and get naked for them.
you always tell me how gross you think smoking is.
but when one of your friends offers you a cigarette, you snatch it up like a starving child.
and if you dont go for it eagerly, you ask me first. and of course if i say no, ill look like the bad guy. like the over controlling girlfriend. you know it bothers me. you tell me all the time how nasty it is. i dont get it. grow a backbone and just say no thanks. make up some bullshit excuse like a sore throat if you feel the need.
you always tell me how much you hate weed. yet yesterday when jays roommate said we should get ahold of some, you were all for it.
you get upset when i talk about it. you even said you would break up with me if i started back.


and about friday. you want to get drunk. you tell me not to get mad if you start flirting with everyone. yeah sure. whatever. i wont get mad. ill let you sober up, take you back to annettes, and leave you there. i know if i did the things that you do, you would leave me in a heartbeat. because "you dont need to put up with that crap" because "you cant take me hurting you" yeah.... right.


get in my ******** shoes.