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i don't normally do these kinda entries...but, im feeling kinda bad recently.....
.........im getting to the point that im starting to hate life again......i feeling so lonely right now....this feeling in my heart is distgusting...sometimes i wish i could just rip it out....it sucks. but, i don't know what to do...the harder i try to fix things...it becomes so much harder to obtain what i want. Im never good enough for anyone im either not hot enough.....and i know im not hot...but still just cause im alil fat or something people treat me like im some kind of disease. i don't know whats wrong w/ me people always seem to lose interest or stop talking to me or don't want anything to do w/ me....personality and being nice and a good person or occassionally bad ; ). doesn't mean s**t in this world...no one can ever get around what someone looks like and its the most ******** up s**t.....why is it that worse ppl than me can get ppl.....but, when it comes to me...no matter what i do people don't give a ******** i have to live this miserable ******** existence alone........i literally do like everything i can....i do exercise and take showers and shave and ive even tried dressing nicer and putting myself out there and everything ppl are always advising me to do....but it never gain anyone's interest. and then here on gaia ill be talking to someone and we'll be getting along real nice or something...and then they'll seem interested...but as soon as i show ppl what i look like they run away....like im some monster or inhuman thing. sorry for my lil rant here im just not feeling that great today....sometimes i wanna die...but i can't