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The way I wrote this was pretty funny. I was lying in bed trying to sleep, and all of a sudden I literally jump up and start writing. Talk about random inspiration. Well here it is:


Oh the wondrous feelings you give me
Although they constantly leave me
Always contemplating
My next move
And wondering
If I make a mistake
Will I be able to recover
Or will I simply lose everything
This game we call love
Is as complicating
As it is simple
So don't ever tense up
For fear of loss
Just relax and enjoy
Every single win

Hm. I rather like this one. Here it is:


Bring me somewhere
That I've never been before
Where time ceases to exist
And no one can pass judgment
Bring me somewhere
That I can freely express
Everything I've held inside
I wish that I could stay
Inside this little paradise
An oasis of sorts
Living in simplicity and freedom
But we all must return
To our reality
Back to a place where our thoughts
Must be kept inside
And our feelings
Stay somewhere between being
Safely hidden and exposed to the public
But on occasion
We all give in
Indulge if you will
To that one escape beyond our control
And let all our passion and talent
Flow freely onto a blank canvas
Giving us a new definition of life
We all live for this rush
So grab a pen and paper
And let it all out

A poem I wrote just to express some of my feelings at the moment. Which is another reason I love writing, it always makes me feel so much better. But here it is, enjoy:


As I sit here
Reflecting upon past events
I wonder
If I've done everything
I possibly could
To let you know
How much
You mean to me
And how
Life would simply stop
If ever lost you
And I continue
To over think
And analyze
Every work ever spoken
Sometimes it seems
Simply chaotic
And yet other times
Everything seems
In perfect order
Yet I still can't seem
To extinguish
The constant worries
Until I can finally see you
And my feelings are reassured
As true
And I know that
What I've worked so hard for
Was something not to be
Analyzed
But something to be
Enjoyed

I just wrote this, and I hope you like it:


They can't hold you back forever
They can only go so far
So what will you do
Without the restraint
Of their rules
Or the pressure
To be accepted
And don't worry
About their actions
Or what they might say
Because someday
You'll rise above them
And look down
At the pity
They've dug themselves into
So keep your head up
Don't let them in
And wait it out
Until you can finally
Break free

Ok so this one's pretty short, but I still liked it:


Forget what they say
You can't turn back now
Sometimes you wonder
Is this what you wanted
Spending countless hours
Reminding yourself
That this was your choice
So sit back
And enjoy the ride
Because you've come too far
To give in now

This was inspired by a personal situation of mine, but here it is:


One of the toughest decisions i've ever made
A moral conflict
Between these so called rules
And the feelings that constantly linger in my thoughts
In my own mind
I see a picture perfect world
With unrealistic situations
Only I could imagine
A world where love was unconditional,
And happiness was around every corner
Secretly knowing it would soon fade away
And as usual
Reality smashes my hopes
Sending me crashing down from a dream like state
But still every night
I spend countless hours wishing that somehow
Everything will work out in the end
So these decisions wouldn't be as difficult
And my life could go on

I was quite upset when I was writing this one, but it still turned out ok:


You'll never quite understand me
Never know every detail and every thought
Never imagine my emotions or their intent
You'll convince yourself that you're right
You'll assume everything's more than it seems
But you'll never know the stress slowly building
Or the constant feelings of regret that you induce
That your oppression against my beliefs
Isn't weakening me, but strengthening my internal escape
Used to block out your rage and give me an inner bliss
Giving me the feeling that I control my own fate, not you
Even knowing that ultimately i'm my own person,
I still am somewhat effected by you're constant rants
But you'll never understand
Never be in this position
Because to you, this is all a matter of control
When I seem to step out of bounds
Cross that thin line you call trust
False suspicions, and assumptions are made
And i'm forced to isolate myself
Into a state of mind where I can freely express my feelings
Without being scolded for something beyond my control
But soon this all fades, when reality hits hard
And I realize i'm right back where I started
Living in my hopes and dreams
And being resented by you all the same
Back to the beginning knowing
You'll never quite understand me

I wrote this a while ago:


I never knew this happiness
Could ever bring so much sorrow
A constant nagging pain
Not enough to completely give up
But enough for an emotional halt

Wishing I had somehow thought things through
Before acting on a whim
Knowing I would indulge in that short lived high
That left the most bitter aftertaste
And wondering if i'll ever regret
These amazing feelings I currently live for

Seeking the acceptance and approval of other
Unecessary, but in my state of my mind, required
Finally coming to realize
That the answer to all my problems
Was always right there beside me

I just absolutely love this, I wrote it a few weeks ago.


I find my inspiration
In the smallest of situations
In what others may see as irrelevant
Although it's not as conventional
As a sunset
Or a pretty work of art
It all works the same for me
My poetry comes straight from the heart
An honest account
That reaches
Into the most personal aspects of my life
It's the closest you'll ever get
To seeing the real me
The person behind all
This happiness and sorrow

Just a short poem I wrote, it's ok I suppose:

Tell me now
What do you want
Because I'd give anything
Just to see you smile
Just to cross your mind
You can't even imagine
What I would sacrifice
To know your deepest thoughts
Believe me
I'd trade anything
Just to spend a moment
With you
And I just can't believe
That this is how i'm feeling
But it's the truth

I like this a lot...I wrote it a few weeks ago:

Envy is a funny little thing
It can rip you apart inside
Yet from the outside
You could appear
As calm as ever
It's almost
Like the slowest
Most deadly posion
Tearing at every little nerve
And the more
It grows
The less you can stand
Every little thing
Seems massive in size
And even the most pointless comment
Blows up your thoughts
But please
Give it no second thought
Just realize
That envy has completely
Taken over
And is here to stay

Here are a couple poems recently wrote...most of them are untitled:


1.
Could you explain to me
This amazing feeling I get
Whenever you're around
And you don't even know
All these thoughts
I've locked inside
And you'd be surprised
If you knew everything
But i'm just not sure
If I should expose
Every little secret
That i've held so close for so long
And risk everything
I worked so hard for
And sacrificed so much for
Tell me
Is it wise
To give yourself up completely
And risk losing everything
For now i'm not quite sure
So I think for now it's best kept a secret
Hidden away from even the most trustworthy
Until exactly the right time


2.
The moments where words fail me
Are now daily occasions
And I can't even begin to express
Anything
Because there's no way to explain it
I won't even attempt to put into words
These amazing feelings
And the detailed and complicated thoughts
Maybe eventually
I'll be able to explain
But it'll never be enough
And I just wish I could tell you everything
And hope for the best
But it's scary
Not knowing
Every little detail and thought
And not being able to explain what you're feeling yourself
The confusion of it all
And all the while still knowing
Deep inside
How you really feel
And knowing enough to trust yourself

Ok I wrote this for my boyfriend, except I wrote it before we started going out. And I kinda liked it so here it is:


I never thought that I would ever write this down
I never though that this feeling would consume my every thought
I never knew someone could brighten even my darkest day
And I certainly didn't expect I would be saying this
But these amazing feeling are just too much
And I just can't hold back anymore
I'll try my very best to explain
Although it may not be perfect,
I promise it's the truth
Well, here it goes
Everytime you hugged me
I felt like I could take on the world
Evertime we talked
I could n't stop smiling
And everything you've ever said to me
Replays constantly in my thoughts
And there hasn't been a day that's gone by where haven't crossed my mind
At first,
I'll be honest I like you as a friend and that was all
But after all the time we spent together
And the long talks we had
I fell harder than you can imagine
And believe me, this is not a lie
If it was I wouldn't be up at 2 in the morning writing it
And I just can't believe these feelings I have for you
Now I hope i'm not being too forward
And overdoing it, but I can't help it
You've always told me how amazing I am
And I love it everytime
But I think you deserve more credit than you give yourself
You're truly amazing
And awesome, and whatever else you can think of
And I mean it
This little poetic letter could go on forever
But simply put,
All I really wanted to say is...
I love you.