Have you ever gotten into fights with your friends over dumb things? For me it seems to be happening alot, and now a friend i trusted wont talk to me and hardly even looks at me. I want to finish this. I'm tired of fighting I just want to have my old friend back, but it seems he has decided I don't care about him. Why? Online is not the way to fight, tones cant be heard and feelings cant be shown. Working on homeowrk he suddenly tells me about wanting to talk to someone who talks back, as well as that I never express my feelings. I do, often too much. But when It comes to talking about someone I hardly know, I'm not going to say anything because I dont know enough to make that judgement. Why? I keep feeling overwhelmed by this. I just want it to end, be it he tells me he never wants to see me again or tht we make up. I want to stop fighting. We both have made mistakes and we hav both vented online to each other, but why cant he talk to me why do I ahve to sit here and cry for a friend who hardly even notices. Maybe he's not worth my time, but I dont want to loose my friend. I just want him to call or talk to me agin,not online, face to face. tell me why he explodedand then at least try make things right, but I don't know how much longer I can hold on. Every night this has been going on, I have wanted to cry. And now it finally has started. I feel sick with the stress of this and other things going on. My drawings are the only thing keeping me somewhat sane at the moment. I feel only crushing sadness now. I want to be happy and be able to hang out wihtmy friends, but the silence and the emptynes kills any good feelings I can have with my group.
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