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I've never been good with people. I've never wanted to be good with people. One thing I've never understood about said people is their need to say things like, "I'm stupid," or "I'm ugly," in hopes of someone telling them that they're wrong. Such 'fishing' confuses and irks me. I refuse to bite, or to rise. My view on fishers: You don't deserve to be countered. You said it, you take it back.
You shouldn't need me to tell you that you're not this or not that, for good or bad. YOU believe you are those things, and you are the only one who can really DO anything about what you believe. I may not believe what you say, but I'm not going to fight you on it. Because the only real thing I can do is express my disapproval of your words or thoughts. If you're so dead-set on thinking that you're ugly and stupid and alone and worthless, I'm not going to contradict you, because you shouldn't need my assurance that you are something. No, I don't think you're that good-looking, but I don't think you're ugly, either. I've told you that before, even went so far as to say that you were 'kind of cute.' What did you say to that? "You've gotten used to how I look." Sure, that might be true, but that also tells me that you're just making excuses for the fact that you might not be as ugly as you make yourself out to be. And seriously? With that kind of talk, do you REALLY think you deserve a compliment, or a contradiction?
I gave up bothering to do anything about your self-slander. According to you, I didn't try to bother at all, ever. Or I did, "in my own way, but it wasn't what you needed." SO... why don't you go find what you DO need, from someone else who can provide it? Because obviously, I'm not giving it to you. You can't change who I am any more than I can change who you are. You want to say those things? Fine, say them, but don't expect me to react to them. Obviously, you want to think that way, so really, who am I to try and change what you think of you? The more you fish for me to tell you that you're wrong about you, the more it pisses me off. Then, when you bring up the fact that I don't tell you you're wrong, it's as if you're implying that I'm a crappy friend, or a crappy person. I'm not a good person, but I'm not a bad one either. I know this, and I'm okay with it.
Find out what you're okay with, and be okay with it. Quit fishing. You're not catching anything from me.
 Azzy-chan89 · Sun Oct 25, 2009 @ 09:29am · 0 Comments |
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