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people seem to be changing there personalities, style, attitude..
i mean i might of changed on the outside and i've been
trying hard to hold on to the world like it was a rope off of a cliff,
but like i dont feel that i changed on the inside! you can change your style,
fake your personality to cover up who you really are, change the way you act.
but you know something inside of you putting you down telling you: That's not you.
dont change for people.inside or out.thats not you.dont do it. well do you what do you know you do.listening to others and not yourself! let yourself be you dont let everyone else show you how to do that cause only you would know what's right? but at the end of this expirement you start to see yourself on the inside collapsing and that's what makes the pain.. pain of knowing that your feeling shut down, ignored, sad, broken, left out, angry at yourself cause now you know that this project didn't work! and really whats the next step? there isn't you finshed and failed you now realize thats not the reaction i was looking for and that's not the response i wanted but now you got it! it's unfixable...one leading mistake leads to more than you thought and you know your confused? with unanswered questions.
can i fix this?what do i do now? do i change back how and why and what!? well, this is how i feel unanswered yelled at for everything that i try to fix! well, here's something i did realize im always wrong.there always right that's what it seems like. and you want to believe it but scared for the resalts. well, there is none cause im always wrong.unanswered.left out.scared.broken.sad.changed,but not sure how i did only on the outside.and empty....