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This is my goodbye but please don't say a word
I don't exist I can't be heard
Each days a new failure every trial is my master
Every step I gain I only fall back faster
This my goodbye but please don't try to stop me
There is nothing left there is nothing left

It's over please lay me to rest forgive me let me go
It's my choice so please lay me to rest forgive me let me go

I am no martyr this place overwhelms me
Once again I collapse I see no way to be free
I search for the answers is there no solution?
I realize my reflection, my reflection is my demon

It's over please lay me to rest forgive me let me go
It's my choice so please lay me to rest forgive me let me go

It's my blasphemy hoping not to wake
Each day is the nightmare sleep is freedom
You gave but it was not enough
Your strength it was not enough, never enough

It's over please lay me to rest forgive me let me go
It's my choice so please lay me to rest forgive me let me go

("This is goodbye"- Killswitch Engage)

i just took this test and that's what have come out


You're the Heartbroken. You loved...once but something terrible happened and you prefer not to talk about it. You usually sit around and mope, You're friends try to cheer you up but nothing seems to work.

on monday my avi will be in the arena. it would be really nice if you would vote for me. biggrin see you! heart

so just one day of school left, i'm happy about this because i don't feel well at this moment. I feel that i need a break and some time for myself. I really count on the next year, i hope that it will be better than this one. I want to leave this year behind and make a new start, that's my only hope for the next year. So we will see what the time brings.... neutral

So now after a few month break I'm finally back on gaia. I know its been a long time but in the future I will be online almost every day. So hi everybody, good to be back biggrin

I don't know how to describe my situation now, I'm feeling so sad. It's the same problem as always. Why does he have to like her so much? He says I'm his number one, but I know she's very close to me. And he knows that too. I can't take this it makes me so sad. I give him everything of me and I want to get everything from him as well. But some part of him will always be with her, because she's so important to him. I don't know what to do, this can't last forever, I'm so broken up inside...

I just don't know what to do. Again and again I have the feeling that my boyfriend's best friend is more important to him than I. I feel like he trusts her more than me and that she knows him much better. I can't take this. My boyfriend doesn't understand why, he wants that we get along with eachother, that maybe we could be friends. I really tried to, but I can't. Everytime I just hear her name I'm getting sad, it's terrible for me to think of her and him together. I'm afraid that they may share more than he does with me. I don't know what to do, this situation cannot last forever. I'm just so very sad, I can't find a way out, I don't know how long I can stand this.... cry

Yes, I finally got my sweet kiki kitty!!! I am so happy! heart It really took me some time to get the gold, but now I have it! I can't really believe it right now, I'm just very happy! I love my kitty! heart