Yes tis my journal. Why its here is beyond me xD I never planned on making a journal... for I'd never be bothered to write in it... However, here I am writing a journal for no reason with no clue why anyone would read it...
This journal is useless. I doubt anyone will read it. Its not cheery stuff at the moment. I doubt this is like other blogs... its more like a diary of thoughts and feelings. I hope one day someone will realise how my life is from this... and understand the pain that I feel and why.
In short, I guess I just wanted a place to write down the stuff I cannot say without looks saying "Wtf O_O?" all the time.
The problem is... no one can truely understand me. I am no one, you see and no one realises it.
I wonder why those who think I am fantastic and special stick with me... because I am either boring or uncontrollably hyper all the time.
People think they are helping... yet really they make me realise the problems I have.
I really wonder how I, the one who once roamed the world without a friend, could feel so lonely when she has so many who "tell" her she is nice and a friend?
I really wonder why I find it so hard to believe that people do like me... but then that is me... for I am the one who can never be loved. My mind just isnt... accustomed to it... people could view me as their world... yet I'd never believe them, for that how I learnt to live. Its hard to learn to trust again...
 Musical Hugs · Thu Feb 01, 2007 @ 09:48pm · 0 Comments |
