After raping my own brain with psychedelics a little over a month ago, I decided to lay off da durgs and get my s**t together. Paranoid, delusional, and suicidal, I began my struggle to obtain happiness.
And now here I stand, still unemployed but, closer to getting a job than I ever was before. I had my first ever interview maybe two weeks ago. I've pounded pavement a few times, doing my best to sell myself to potential employers (Read: Not by means of prostitution.) And let me assure you, I have made an a** out of myself quite a few times in the process XD
I've been sober for a few weeks now. And I even stopped smoking cigarettes a few days ago. I know, big whoop. But still. I'm turning my life around. Slowly, but surely. I don't know whether I'll ever take drugs again, or drink again, or have another cigarette at some point in my life. I guess it all really depends upon how I truly feel at the time. I'm not equipped to make decisions for the long-term future from where I stand now. I can only take my life one step at a time. But I have made a decision for the present and foreseeable future.
Sobriety
. . . and love.
God helps those who help themselves, as the saying goes.
He Who Lurks · Fri May 21, 2010 @ 09:59pm · 0 Comments |