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quiz
What would you do if...
[1] I committed suicide:
[2] I said I liked you:
[3] I kissed you:
[4] I lived next door to you:
[5] I started smoking:
[6] I stole something:
[7] I was hospitalized:
[8] I ran away from home:
[9] I got into a fight and you weren't there:

What do you think about my...
[1] Personality:
[2] Eyes:
[3] Face:
[4] Hair:
[5] Clothes:
[6] Mannerisms:

Other
[1] Who are you?:
[2] Are we friends?:
[3] When and how did we meet?:
[4] How have I affected you?:
[5] What do you think of me?:
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?:
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?:
[8] Do you love me?:
[9] Have I ever hurt you?:
[10] Would you hug me?:
[11] Would you kiss me?:
[13] Would you marry me?:
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?:
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?:
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?:
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.:
[18] Am I loveable?:
[19] How long have you known me?:
[20] Describe me in one word.:
[21] What was your first impression?:
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?:
[23] What do you think my weakness is?:
[24] Do you think I'll get married?:
[25] What about me makes you happy?:
[26] What about me makes you sad?:
[27] What reminds you of me?:
[28] What's something you would change about me?:
[29] How well do you know me?:
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?:
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?:
[32] Are we close?:
[33] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?:

You say kisses arent contracts, that love doesnt mean secutety, that theres a differance between holding hands and binding souls, and that just because someone gives you a gift doesnt mean they intend to last as long as it will. But i have a gift for you that will prove my love is timeless, i have something that will show im holding your hand to show you i want to bind my soul with yours, and best of all i have something that will show that even though each kiss has a differant reason behind it, but all will show im truly devoted to you.
My heart and soul i give to you, to show i will remail true. Devoted to show you that some kisses are the seal on the most bindind contracts and that two sould can be bound with a touch of the hand. Give me a chance to show you its ok to let yourself endulge in the oassis of love that someone is dieing to give you, let me be there to hold your hand and tough your soul, for i give you my undieing devotion, a timeless love, and a promise that every day you spend with me gives the promise that tomarrow will only bring you more pleasure.

how do i prove my love to you, how do i prove i will be faithful, how do i show your the only one i need, how do i get you to believe me? all i want to to is show you what you mean to me, i want you to know how much your smile excites me, but most of all i want you to know how much you mean to me. you like my night in shining armor, you have already save me several time, and being yours forever is the least i could do, i just want to prove i will be faithful to you.

last night i sat in my shower until the water was like ice. every drop felt as thought it were going to peirce my skin, tears well in my eyes but like always i refuse to cry, a lonly empty feeling starts to creep up inside me the more i force the tears away. my heart is burning even as my body freezes, i could get out but whats the point? life just aint worth living worth living anymore. there is nuthing left to hold onto any more, i can see the pooling in the water, its almost as though it isolates itself from the rest, isolated, thats what i have felt for so long, but not anymore, not now that there is nuthing left of me but my frozen corps. yet no one has noticed my passing for they are all out there laughing and enjoying life, enjoying what they have all become, while i lay here in my icy water grave.





ps.
this is a poem i wrote today while i was sitting alone in the dark, its alot of what i feel and think every day yet i dont do the things i think cuz in the end i know i have at least one reason to live.