School sucks. i don't feel like friends with anyone anymore. everyone is just an acquaintance to me. it's annoying. thinking like this gives me a painful feeling in my chest like as if i'm about to cry. it hurts. but i feel hurt already anyways, i feel hecka unwanted. i don't feel like i fit in anymore. i try to think optimistically but i'm too shallow to be able to consider being friends with anyone else. i'm sorry i'm shallow like that but i can't really help it. if i can't feel it i just can't feel it, it doesn't help. i'm depressed and it scares me because of that noonday demon book. this feeling really sucks. i feel like crying like right now my eyes are already moist.
i suck. theres people that are willing to be friends with me and yet i'm here being sad about those who aren't so willing. friends? haha i laugh at the idea. i suck at making friends i hate not having a best friend. actually i wonder how many people have "friends" and don't really think about wanting more. selfish maybe but i don't know. i don't feel like crying much anymore. i just feel like lying down and forgetting about this feeling. it hurts. it hurts this painful feeling in my chest. it hurts
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