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So it seems that I'm going to back to being depressed again. I just I was never fully over it begin with. I do realize that I am depressed and the such but I don't think that I need to be on any sort of pills. Manly because I want to get over this myself and with something that messes with my head. I know that not being so lazy with help. I just need to start doing things and getting of my lazy butt. I also think getting a job would help to but even though I'm looking and such. I just not getting hired.

I have also come to the conclusion that I need to stop making friends. It just never works out when I make friends. In the beginning it's always fine but then they just stop talking to me and leave. I know that people need there space too and that they are not just there to talk to just me and do things with only me. But I would like that get a reply back every once in awhile. There are friends out there that do reply and talk with me when they can and that helps out alot.

It's just hard when you think that you're really good friends with someone and then they just stop everything that deals with you. It's hard to deal with sometimes. And I don't know if I did or said something wrong or what, but if I did I'm sorry. Maybe one day this will change for me but it has been going on for so long now.

If I want things to change though I think I'm going to need a more positive attitude about myself and my life. Wish me good luck cuz I know I'll need it.