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 II S n o w y II · Sat Jan 18, 2014 @ 10:22pm · 0 Comments |
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Just wanted to let everyone know, I'm done with the drama here, I can be found on msn, but other than that I'm done with gaia. I don't want to put up with this crap anymore, sorry for the inconvience, and it was great while it lasted
Brandi & Shea:: Thanks for being the best friends on here that I'll ever have ^^ Though hopefully I'll still see you on MSN sometimes or something x3 that would be awesome
Gav:: Thanks for being an awesome friend, it was nice having someone there for me when no one else was
Molly:: God knows you will never see this, but I am sorry..I was wrong and I admit that/see that now. You are an awesome person and a magnificent RP'er, I just wish we could talk again. Thanks for being there for me when I needed you, and thanks for helping me when I first started gaia, you were my first friend on here, and my closest friend ever. I'm not saying that to be a suck up either ^^ you really were. I love you tons and I always will, and I'll miss you--most of all ((No offense to everyone else XD))
To everyone else:: Don't beg me for my s**t XP I already donated it XDDD Ne, it was nice being friends with you all x3 fun getting to know you and I wish you all the best of luck
heart always and forever
Jess
II S n o w y II · Thu Sep 14, 2006 @ 01:04am · 1 Comments |
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Growing up really sucks, one:: Because you lose friends and contacts-and two:: People expect more of you. I miss being me, the young immature jessica, now im expected to be the older sophisticated jess, and I'm not liking it.
It seems that in the few months that I've been away from gaia, I'm not the only one who's changed. Only difference is I'm the only one who didn't change drastically. All of my old friends have changed, I feel like I don't even know them anymore and it hurts me to the point of tears. For example:: I got online the other day missing one of my old friends, thinking I would never see them again, and by some miracle I talked to another friend who knew their new information. So I got it and IM'ed her and was very excited, for several hours to say the least. But sady she's changed to the point that I don't even know her anymore...and I'm not so sure I want to...not the new her...I miss the way she used to be, she made me feel like we were family, like she really cared. Now she shrugs her shoulders at whatever. Call this just being paranoid or whatever, but this is the vibe I'm getting from her, though I know she's more distracted in other things right now, I don't understand why she can't just find a little bit of time for me...Just a little bit...
I remember why I hated the internet so much, and why I didn't fight my parents long ago when they got rid of it...Because of the drama, there is way to much drama for me online, whether it just be me or whatever, but there is. Everytime I'm on here I think of what used to be, not the here and now, and I can't help but say how much I wish things were in the past again. I miss being close to my friends, like our own little net family. Now I find myself sitting at my laptop typing up this entry and tears brimming my eyes. Why does this depress me so much you ask? Why could I have grown so close to people I don't even know IRL you ask? Because I relate to them, each of us IRL is a different person, we put on a face. On the net...we are who we really are. We have a chance to be ourselves. And my online friends mean more to me than people offline. Sad isnt it? But here I used to have people supporting me, loving me, and caring about me...Now I feel like I have nothing...All because of growing up...Time passing, people getting sick of gaia, moving on. Things aren't as important to them anymore...But they are still just as important to me...I miss spending hours online RPing with them and having a great time, I miss spilling my guts to them over the phone and online, telling them about my most deepest secrets and not worrying about being judged. Some people have asked me why I would put such things out for the entire world to see if they so wished. I'll tell you why...Because here I feel safe...Safer than I do talking about it to someone face to face. Over the phone I can handle, on the net I can handle...but when it comes to IRL...I hide, I'm scared. This is and was my safe haven...but its becomming more and more dangerous for me. I find myself getting very depressed right now, if not just because I miss my friends and family. I miss everything, I wish there was something I could do to change what has happened and just have things the way they used to be...
I'm not perfect, I've ******** up in my life more than anyone I know, and I apologize whole-heartedly to those who have been affected by it. But I also thank you for standing by me when I needed you the most. I miss you all with all my heart, and I wish you the best in life, if its not to much to ask I would like to be in the back of your mind every now and then...
heart always
Jess crying
II S n o w y II · Sat Aug 26, 2006 @ 03:37am · 1 Comments |
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I really wish I could go back into time, I miss when gaia was filled with all of my friends, and now most of them are rarely on anymore. Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful for the few that are still comming on frequently, but Ramsey doesn't come on at all anymore and I wish I knew what happened to her...And Guren comes on less than once a month and It just keeps going downhill! I wish people would start comming on more, and I also wish there were more literates in gaia...this is sad crying
Jess...
II S n o w y II · Wed Aug 23, 2006 @ 06:12am · 0 Comments |
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Please ignore the signature, its hard to use gaia on a MAC, I'm no longer getting married, though i am living out on my own and I have a new job. The guy who was going to marry me sort of...screwed me over, whatever you want to call it. Either way he was a complete jerk and has almost made me second guess ever dating anyone again. Sad huh? Not like i could get another boyfriend or that I would want one. I have been losing weight like mad, ive lost over 20 pounds in the past month. My best friend is in jail because of something he didn't do, and my other friend has 4-6 weeks to live. Yeah...So thats my life..
I miss everyone on here very much, its hard to believe i havent been on and rping for about six months now, i really miss hanging out with everyone and being a RP fanatic, in order for me to do it again i have to go get a computer so i can get the internet, which i plan on doing pretty quickly because i have a lot of spare time with nothing to do with it. Currently all my spare time is at night and on the weekend but still it gets boring sitting in my house all alone. I don't like living by myself but its better than living with my parents.
Fo that are curious out there i will be getting the internet probably within the next couple of months. My goal is to start buying a computer and then I'm going to get clearwire or something for it, i want a laptop because its easier and i would have more room than i would with a PC. I don't have enough room in my tiny little apartment for a computer desk and such. So i would have to get a laptop.
I hope everyones doing okay, I know that im alright, at least for the time being, it was pretty rough for me to lose Tim because we were so into eachother, but he was the one that allowed other people to come inbetween our relationship, so if he wants to do that then I say let him. It would have never worked anyway, if he was the kind of person to allow everyone else to make his decisions for him.
Thanks for listening to my incessent ramblings again.
Jess
II S n o w y II · Tue May 02, 2006 @ 05:07pm · 0 Comments |
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Ripped in half, yet again... |
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You know how it seems like everything in your life is going awesome, I got really close to God last night, found an awesome youth group. And since the moment I woke up this morning this day has gone completely to hell...
First my morning starts out with a nightmare involving my step-mother, and how I was trying to convince her that I really was abused my my father...
Then my first alarm went off and I had another half-hour to sleep, which was just enough time for another nigthmare about my dead grandmother...
After that I got ready for school, which was quick and I arrived to school on time, going strait to the counsling office because I was quite depressed. She couldn't see me and that was hell... I left school after first period because some girl was being a b***h to me and threatening to have all of her friends come and kick my a**. And my so called favorite teacher was embarrassing me infront of the entire class, and no, this wasnt the first time for that...
Then I go to the mall where my eye-doctor appt was. which was canceled, me and mom talked i told her i skipped school, etc. After that I went to work and it was boring...
Then, ((I wont mention any names because of the last time this happened, but since we're not talking anymore it doesnt matter i guess...)) One of my so called best friends, was in a really shitty mood, I came on and tried to cheer her up, but apparently she was in even more of a pissy mood than I had ever seen her, which is JUST ******** GREAT. So I start getting upset and frustrated because I can do nothing to help her and she gets pissed off because everything im doing to try and help isnt working one ******** bit. Whats new? I have a twisted humor or wahtever, despite the fact she knows I'm joking, oh no, that doesnt matter...
Then we REALLY get into it, I tell her that maybe its best that we don't talk anymore, at first she thinks im being immature, THEN she tells me to ******** off and maybe its best that way. SO here I am without anyone, being miserable, and hating myself of course....
To be honest, and NO im not sucking up, im telling the truth, she was like a sister to me, I loved to think of her that way because she meant a lot, what the ******** is this? Can there POSSIBLY be any more drama in my life? Because if there is...I swear....I dont know what I sware, but ima slam my head really hard against a wall or something -_-; I can only take so much bullshit and I already have enough on my plate. Don't get me wrong I love to try and help others, but I'm done with it because I'm no good at it and I only piss ppl off more. Gotta love this life huh?
******** heated,
Jess
II S n o w y II · Tue Oct 25, 2005 @ 05:09am · 1 Comments |
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Well..here's an update ^^ |
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My lifes not going to bad right now, actually its going pretty good...
Despite the fact that I talked to Shea the other day and many different things happened....I'm going through a rather hard time in my life right now, but hey, whats new?
I have a friend who has AIDS and she's on her death bed, I seem to have a problem with making friends that are about to die >.< Gez, you'd think I'd learn...
School's going good, I'm actually making decent grades and doing quite well, I'm working my butt off but at least I'm acheving my goal! I have a huge senior project to do but other than that it's not so bad this year, I'm working 29 hours a week and doing quite a good job if I do say so myself...
Me and Gav almost broke up but we managed to stay together, I'm really glad too...The other night I had a break-down and talked to mom about him, I really wanted to see him and be with him before I graduate. But saw no way to do that...Mom proposed an idea for me and she's going to talk to my dad about it, to make a long story short, I might get to see Gav right after x-mas if we get the plane ticket! I'm so incredibly excited! You have absolutely no idea! Ive been able to think of nothing else, I'm afraid the time's going to drag by until the day we meet, but we have only about 2.5 months until we do!
Thats my life in a nutshell, I'll try and post more soon ^-^
Jess
II S n o w y II · Thu Oct 13, 2005 @ 05:39am · 2 Comments |
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