Normally I wouldn't get all wemo and write in my journal like this--at least on the internet. It's too cliche nowadays, and honestly I've got a nice one sitting on my desk waiting for me to write in it.
But, hey. What the ******** ever.
I guess I have a lot to say, but when the moment is right and I get the chance my jaw snaps shut and my brain internally passes out. *scratches head* Does it happen to all of us, or am I just retarded?
To cut to the chase here, I'm trying to say is that for some people it really is...never too late. I know it may sound sappy and would normally come out of some, like...old guy's throat sitting on a bench feeding pigeons, but I assure you I'm not wrinkly. And pigeons piss me off to the point of no return. But whatever floats your boat is fine with me.
Today my friend Ahiru got a comment on her profile--if you can really...call it a comment. It's in binary code, or computer talk...I guess. I'm not really a whizz when it comes to that kind of stuff, and honestly I would probably hit myself before even attempting that kind of s**t. But someone she knew, someone she cared very deeply about, knows how to use it. But...unfortunately, he isn't...really here per se. *looks down*
But it's just strange how after a few months after his passing a little message to her appears out of the blue. And I'm telling you now this isn't the first time something trippy like this has happened with these two awesome people. But this makes me go: FTW?
Ahiru is needless to say cared very deeply for, whether she doesn't realize it or not, and if she does she denies it. She cares a lot about people--and I mean a lot, to the point where she makes herself physically sick but still manages to fight for what she wants most: to make everyone smile. A lot of people don't thank for her attempts, and they brush off what they need the most: someone who actually gives a s**t about them and someone who won't give up when all else fails. I'm just glad there's still some people out there who realize this, even if it's too dark for them to see what they're holding in the first place.
*sighs heavily in slighty annoyance* Okay, so maybe Ahiru-chan doesn't normally see that people out there actually care about her--as in, more people than she thinks. I don't know. Maybe it adds more to her unselfishness that she SO OBVIOUSLY HAS--*narrows eyes*--or something along those lines. And, also...I really think that she doesn't get enough recognition for what she does--especially what she's done for me. I may not ever able to give back what she's given to me but a simple thank you. And a hug. Because she gives really. good. hugs.
*small smile* I'm really glad something like this happened to her. Made me realize that it is possible that anything can be said at anytime, and there's someone out there who can tell her these things even when they're...so far away. It's hard for her to understand sometimes, and with this whole thing it has to be overwhelming for her. *is talking to her on Yahoo!* Okay, it is overwhelming for her. And overwhelming for me. *wipes tears away angrily* Stupid things.
So, thank you, Morgan. You may never read this, but...hey, whatever. The least I can do for what you've done for my Ahiru-chan. ^___^
ilu, Duckie-chan. Frlz.
Sincerely,
Your One and Only Tori-san<3
But, hey. What the ******** ever.
I guess I have a lot to say, but when the moment is right and I get the chance my jaw snaps shut and my brain internally passes out. *scratches head* Does it happen to all of us, or am I just retarded?
To cut to the chase here, I'm trying to say is that for some people it really is...never too late. I know it may sound sappy and would normally come out of some, like...old guy's throat sitting on a bench feeding pigeons, but I assure you I'm not wrinkly. And pigeons piss me off to the point of no return. But whatever floats your boat is fine with me.
Today my friend Ahiru got a comment on her profile--if you can really...call it a comment. It's in binary code, or computer talk...I guess. I'm not really a whizz when it comes to that kind of stuff, and honestly I would probably hit myself before even attempting that kind of s**t. But someone she knew, someone she cared very deeply about, knows how to use it. But...unfortunately, he isn't...really here per se. *looks down*
But it's just strange how after a few months after his passing a little message to her appears out of the blue. And I'm telling you now this isn't the first time something trippy like this has happened with these two awesome people. But this makes me go: FTW?
Ahiru is needless to say cared very deeply for, whether she doesn't realize it or not, and if she does she denies it. She cares a lot about people--and I mean a lot, to the point where she makes herself physically sick but still manages to fight for what she wants most: to make everyone smile. A lot of people don't thank for her attempts, and they brush off what they need the most: someone who actually gives a s**t about them and someone who won't give up when all else fails. I'm just glad there's still some people out there who realize this, even if it's too dark for them to see what they're holding in the first place.
*sighs heavily in slighty annoyance* Okay, so maybe Ahiru-chan doesn't normally see that people out there actually care about her--as in, more people than she thinks. I don't know. Maybe it adds more to her unselfishness that she SO OBVIOUSLY HAS--*narrows eyes*--or something along those lines. And, also...I really think that she doesn't get enough recognition for what she does--especially what she's done for me. I may not ever able to give back what she's given to me but a simple thank you. And a hug. Because she gives really. good. hugs.
*small smile* I'm really glad something like this happened to her. Made me realize that it is possible that anything can be said at anytime, and there's someone out there who can tell her these things even when they're...so far away. It's hard for her to understand sometimes, and with this whole thing it has to be overwhelming for her. *is talking to her on Yahoo!* Okay, it is overwhelming for her. And overwhelming for me. *wipes tears away angrily* Stupid things.
So, thank you, Morgan. You may never read this, but...hey, whatever. The least I can do for what you've done for my Ahiru-chan. ^___^
ilu, Duckie-chan. Frlz.
Sincerely,
Your One and Only Tori-san<3
