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I sent a PM to my friend cleo, and so i decided to post that in here, so I can remember this formyself.
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I'm going to be having brain surgery on the 7th & 14th of september.
I had three choices of surgeries.
1. Have the part of the brain removed while being put to sleep, without questions.
2. Having the part of the brain being removed being awake without question, so they can poke around with my brain testing which part controls speach memory etc
3. Having the surgeon slice open my skull and insert a seizure information veiwer thing onto that part of the brain, and make me have seizures to monitor what happens/point out where exactly this brain problem is so there are no mistakes or anything that will really effect my speech/memory/movement.etc. (7th) and then surgery one week from then to actually remove that part of the brain which shows where everything is coming from.
I chose #3
The surgeon said that this part of the brain they were looking at is abnormally larger than the other side,
I'm so ******** freaked out and scared about this all... That I feel shakey and I feel liuke someone/thing is stepping on my stomach.
I had some question for the doctor. #1 was, when you remove the piece of the brain out, can I see it?-- he said well, the color of the brain is like a pinkish grey but more pink than grey
#2 was, Are those skulls over there on your bookcase real?--One is, the other is made of plastic. , I saw the Larger one, and that one was real. It was so cool.
#3 was, can you remove this small piece of skin on my right eyelid?-- a plastic surgeon would have to do that, we might be able to ask one to.
#4 will i be able to move around the room? what happens if i have to use the bathroom?-- you might be able to, and then again we might have to use bed pans, my response was EEEEWWWWWW
-I forget what else i asked him
I remember when he left his office, i told my mom to look at me for a moment, and I pretended to pick its nose;the skull.
-OH i asked how long i would be in the hospital, -- the day you have that seizure monitor in, you will be watched for one week, when one week is over you will have the surgery, after that you will be in the hospital for one more week with metal brackets in your head to have the skull heal a bit and after that week, you will be able to leave the hospital- so about 2weeks or so.. X____x I forget what else I wanted to tell you, if i remember i'll send you another message.<--- just ignore that last sentence,