- Meh...having a minor emotional break down at the moment..
I'm guessing it's cause I'm nearing my period xP Iunno..
But yea....Missing Nick badly right now.
I know I know I saw him yesterday... That kinda makes things worse. xP
Meh.. Yesterday I just coulda stayed with him forever..We were so sleepy on that bench we coulda fell asleep in each others arms.. -sigh-
Ok bit my arm a bit too much.. Yea stress reliever. Biting is a really good way to relieve stress -nods- Basically replace mental pain with physical pain.
meh.... I love Nick...at this point he's the only one I wanna be with and I miss him whenever he's not around..Whenever I have a bad day, he makes it better. We can be together and not talk..and it's still cool because at least we're together. He makes me laugh so much I can't even stand it.. I'm always light-headed because I'm laughing so much.. He is truly kind...
I could stare into his eyes all day~..and that's huge because I tend to avoid looking directly into most people's eyes. Although I tend not to actually do that because well..yea. XD And omg don't even get me started on his scent X3 Everyone has a scent all their own..and I <3 Nick's. 4laugh Luv his hair..It's cool XD Especially when spiked.. hehehe (I'm a sucker for guys with spiked hair..and glasses XD glasses are always cute..actually I take that back..lol =P getting back to the point..)
He's so cute.. Sometimes I can hear/feel his heart racing.. XD Knowing me mine probably goes ******** mental XD I probably blush like crazy.. Iunno
Ok I just kinda talked to myself XD and I feel better now..kinda.. Cause I gots the tv on comedy central X3 It helps oh so much. If there's anything wrong with me help me laugh and I'll feel so much better. Just..don't be like a friend of mine who..gives me..gay images to help me feel better.. She told me to imagine Rinota in a bikini once -twitch twitch- Yea I was like...in so much pain from conditioning and i overworked a muscle so i just gave up and sat down and she tried to get me to stand up and i was crying and she was like ok you know what..imagine Chris in a bikini!!! ....omg the mental scarring that caused...
...Wow more talking to myself XD or..the..journal ok you know what...I should probably set this to private...but..I'm too lazy that includes moving the mouse an extra half an inch blaugh
well..meh..At this point I guess I can safely say I love nick but..Not like how adults mean it.. A different kind of I love you.
Awwwwz..Nick signed on and off aim..-sniffle- Oh well..Naw maybe he's just checking who's on aim before he might possibly go on the computer. Iunno.
Well...damn..Lost my train of thought...
hmm..Maybe if I do a recap I can remember...
+ I love nick
+ Emotional breakdown officially ended
+ Laughing is so awesome
+ .........yea iunno whatever
~</3 <3
