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The jorney
it begins agin
the words of sorrow

those words he said
the meaning of those words
i hated it once agin

another rejection
why dont i shot my self in the head?
i die

i need to die in sorro
and pain
no one loves me

no point in life for me
i wanna kill myself
but i dont want to die

shot myself i said
but i do not
i stare at the gun

for hours i did
i finally decide
no one to love

i love him
but he didnt say he loves me
just meet

but that doesnt matter
i die
i need to die

no point in life
not one at all
im alone

i have no one
i cry in silence
and in missery

in pain and sorro
never felt
this much pain before

he..he did it
no..i did
i ******** it all up

i love
but am not loved
i hate

and am hated
no one here
no one with me

no one to hold me
no one to help me
no one to care about me

no one at all
so i finally decide
i point the gun at my head

i think to my self one last time
about thy man i love
about the man i meet

i say i love him one last time
and pull the triger
boom goes the gun

i die on my bed
i lay there bleeding
in sorro

i fell to the ground
no one at all cared
of that of which i did

i murdered myself
cause of the one i love
he doesnt love me so i killed meself,

though i die slowly
and painfully
i think of him

for a glimps moment
i say his eyes
he kissed me on the cheek

i felt his tears on my cheek
rolling down on my neck
he said i dont love you

and good bye he said
i thought of his words
"i dont love you"

it made me think of him
how much i want him
to love me i said to myself

i thought of him all that time
before my mind
whent dead...