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I went to a mountain party the other day. I was hoping Dennis was going to be there but of coarse he wasn't. I got a bit tipsey but not drunk which was fine for me. There were a lot of people i didn't know. But some old friends were there too. Austin was there and so was Rodger from school oh and Derrick. They were with this kid i guess i had met before when i was with Ben. I thought he was really cute and he looks like the singer in Taking Back Sunday. He was really friendly but not in a i want to get with you way. I was really grateful for that. I was happy i found someone to get my mind off of Dennis. He was a real sweety and super nice. I hate thinking about being out with Dennis though, it makes me miss him. Katie was being drunk and stupid and told the guy i was talking to, Kyle, to leave me alone and that he gave her bad vibes. She started to push him and told him she was protecting me. I got pissed off and told Kyle that i had to go make a phone call and that i probably wouldn't be back. We said our goodbyes and i went next to Katie's jeep and leaned against it and cried. I got sick of standing there alone so i went towards the fire to warm up and Bill came up next to me. He had put his hands on my shoulders i think and was asking me about kyle and said something about getting with guys or something and i just freaked out on him. He was being ******** annoying and i was depressed. I told him and he said he understood. He doesn't, and he doesn't know what he's dealing with, I couldn't be near him anymore. Katie wouldn't bring me home so i had her open the jeep so i could fall asleep in it. I tried to but i couldn't and i saw these car lights flashing and i saw it was Kyle's. I didn't think much of it but then i got out and asked if he could do me a huge favor and bring me home. He said of coarse so i got in the car with him, Austin, and derrick. We went to McDonalds before he dropped me off. It wasn't weird or anything which was good. And i like how he knows my friends. Katie was already home by the time i got there. I went to sleep and tried to ignore her. I had work in the morning. Work was alright the next day. Just really boring. I've been talking to Luke a lot more because he works right across from me and when no one is in the store i chat with him sometimes. Back home i told myself i wouldn't IM Dennis when i saw he came online but instead he Imed me. So i talked to him. I told him we should hangout and he said he would call me later after his nap but he didn't. Next time i talked to him which was around 10pm he told me he was tired and was going to watch the news and go to bed. Instead i started talking with this guy on myspace named Phil. He is a lot older but he is really into modeling which is something i'm really interested in so we started chatting about it. He said i had a good chance and i showed him some pictures. I talked to him about some problems lately and he seemed to be a really understanding guy. Maybe someday he'll be my agent haha. That would be cool though. He said that we should hangout sometimes and shoot some pool. I said it would be cool if he taught me.