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Yep... know the feeling. Ignore it, I suppose.

Kind of harsh to hear that your ex fell in love with your friend. I'm amazed you're not envious. Maybe you are and haven't realized it.

We all look for someone or something to cling on. I still sleep with my doll. Just live life for fun, not for the show. You'll be put on the spotlight one day or another. You shouldn't expect it. It'll just take longer.

I'm rambling about something, here.

Why try at all, if trying gets you hurt, what do you think not trying will do? Try that

I may not know you, I may have no idea who you are on gaia, or what you person is. But your exactly like me.

I'm the kind of guy that all the girls flock away from. I mean. The second I try and flirt with a girl, someone else is there to swipe them off their feet, and leave me in the dust.

I'm the one pepole put on the shelf too. The kind of person people ignore, and leave to collect dust on his own. It sucks, it really does, to try and get something I want, then have to watch it dissapear, along with any dreams of ever getting it. Then I start from rock bottom again, only to fail once more. Its a long chain, that repeats itself after 5 minutes. /

You want someone you can see one day, and consider that person special, because you feel that person trusts you to an extent past that of what others give you. You yearn for the chance to show you affection, and have affection shown to you. Coinciadentally( spelling. xP ), I do to. Except I know no one will love me, not in the real world. Maybe in this world, where I can be loved, but not in the real world, there, I'm just the sad human everyone doesn't want to be with. I don't know why. People say I'm not that bad looking, I try to be nice. I try to help. I try to do things for others. But maybe its because I'm not like everyone else, maybe its because I'm different, and I do things differently that no one likes me, or is attracted to me. But I guess thats just the way I was meant to be.

I let it go. I'm done wanting things. Becuase the second I want something, I lose any chance of ever getting it.

Its a tragedy. I hate to see it fall upon you, but maybe we can talk together, cause we both know what it feels like. To be left out..

Funny thing is..I became myself, instead of some wanna be punk goth, and I'm still not accepted...

Xeroxer - Unfortunatly, not trying isn't in my personality. I can't give up, or else I should just give up on life..there is no difference..

tina, how do you do it?

no one reads my journal. sweatdrop

*bows*

Its nots a pleasant feeling. I know a lot of people that feel the same way. I'd like to see it from the other side just once. Who knows, maybe I'll get that chance. But I'll just sit and hopefully it'll happen. *shrugs*

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I don't know how I do it either. People read what I have to say, luckily I don't get flamed.