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All afternoon, I've been in this really odd...really...sadistic..mood. I'm lovin it. I think it was because of my outfit. Well...partially anyways. Out of my senior class I was voted most likely to become a rocker. And so today everyone had to dress up as their "part." I was in my black baggy pants from Hot Topic, black shirt, thick black eyeliner, my black leather wristbands, dark lipstick. I looked wicked, or so I was told. And I've had all this energy I don't know what to do with. I wanted...no, I want to just...destroy something...tear something apart....I wanted to scream, I wanted to feel the warm liquid of life drip through my fingers. I wanted to pull at the flesh of another, ripping and tearing. I wanted to hear not my screams but their own as the cry out in pain. Y'know, I even had the peculiar urge to gouge out my own left eye. I've actually had that one for a few days now. It's quite odd and I don't know why. Maybe, just to see what it feels like. HA, pun! 'See' what if feels like to gouge out my eye. Heh...wow...I need to go do something...