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Maybe

Maybe if you saw me when I'm dead.
Maybe if you loved me when you caught my eye.
Maybe you would care if once again you held me in your arms.
But I'm afraid that "maybe" would never come true.

You saw me and I see you.
You loved me and I love you.
You cared about me and I care about you.
You held me and I hold you.
I will always want that "maybe" to come true.

But that "maybe" might not come through.


I Thought

I thought sometimes the night would never end and I thought of the time we had to spend.
I thought maybe the rain would never quit and I thought the knife would never slit.
I thought the blood would never fall and I thought I would never leave this world.

Someday

Someday, I will show you the way.
Someday, I want to see that day.
Someday, no one will be alone.
Someday, I will atone, for the horrible things I did.
And someday I can be with you again.

Promise

I will show you how to love.
I will never let you go.
I will show you how to trust.
I will never betray you.
I will show you how to dream.
I will never give up.
I will show you how to stand.
I will never let you fall
I promise.

Come Back

The day you left was heart breaking. You said you loved me! How could you?! I loved you and you took that for granted.
You broke my heart and shunned me. If you would come back, I would beg you on hands and knees. I would do whatever you say. Every Command. Every word. I would be obedient.
Only if you come back.

I Still Love You

I never saw it coming. You turning on me. I never thought you would. I never thought you could. But I was stupid and you broke me down. My mind, my mind, my body, my soul. I thought you loved me and wanted me, but I guess I was wrong. I thought only if you saw me, that you would hold me and never let me go. To embrace the thrill of it all and love what you once had.
But now I'm gone to find another. My own kind and wanted you to see me now so much that my heart still bleeds at the sight of your face, the smell of your body, the taste of your kiss, the feeling of your clothes, the sound of your voice.
And I wanted you to be here with me, but your not and I wanted you to know I still love you.

How I Feel

I heard your voice and my mind went crazy.
I saw your face and my heart skipped a beat.
I felt your smile and my hopes flared.
I knew you looked at her and my hands started to sweat.
I smelt your fragrance and my body froze.
And that's when you passed me with her in your arms.

You

I never felt like this before.
I've never heard a voice like yours.
I need to know if you love me too.
Because I know I love you.
I see your face and I felt your heart.
I was hoping that we would never fall apart.
And now I see why you never said it.
I never thought my darkness would be lit.
But you must have forgot,
I ever existed.

Out In the Darkness

I will find you, wherever you are.
I will help you, near and far.
I will love you, till death do us part.
I will need you, to calm my heart.
I will see you, out in the darkness.

Why

This is why. Why I hate loneliness. The darkness can swallow you whole if you let it. If you don't fight it, you will be destroyed. And I will sit on the outer lines of the darkness and tame it. I will be the only one to notice. The only one to care. But don't worry, your heart will survive. Within me. And me, me alone, will love you.

My Sister

I swore I would protect you and that will never change. I told you I would be there and I always will. I knew I would never be able to save you, but I'll die trying. I knew I would trust you and always will. I love you my sister and I will hide you from the rest of the world. I will protect you with my life and I will stand by your side. I will be the one you can cry with if you don't want to cry alone and I can cry with you. I will see you in your wedding dress and we will laugh at all our ex-boyfriends. We will mourn over our departed family and we will need each other to live. You are my life. You are my sister.

I Am the Broken Angel

I am the broken angel. Wings burnt and snapped, crooked. Halo, dissinigrated. Secrets rested on me, my shoulders. I haven’t lost my life, but it's fading fast. Alone. I am the broken angel. No one wants me. No one needs me. They look right through me. I am the broken angel. Unwanted. Uncaring. Unseen.

When Things go Wrong

Where were you when every thing went wrong
When the sun went out
When the moon was the only star in the sky
Or did the moon go out too
Was the light just my imagination
Or was it you looking for me
The light faded after a while
And I was left in darkness
The light never found me again
But I'm sure it will as soon as I find you
But I may not find you at all
Not in this pitch black darkness
I'll be searching for that light until I die from the look
But I know you’re out there
And I know I'll find you
Because I know something
Something powerful
I love you

When

When do dark wings stretch across the sky
When does the night never die
When will there be eternal night
When will it be lit by the light
When does the dark face appear
When does that face become so dear
When will those eyes show happiness instead of sadness
When will that heart become full of madness
When does love find a person
When does love reach out to a criminal
When will that criminal slaughter thousands
When will he come for me
And when will that dark phantom thief appear at my window

Death

She stood there.
Standing in the rain.
Her mascara smeared, her soft eyes filled with tears.
She cries over you.
She needs you here.
She stood there.
Holding back on the bridge's edge.
She loves you.
She is alone.
Then she falls into the dark water.
You're too late.
She loved you.
She needed you.
Now she hides from you.
Afraid of you.
Afraid to face you and tell you she was wrong.
I now walk her road.
No one there.
Not one person anywhere.
I loved you and now I hate you.
You killed her.

I Love You
You can go if you want to,
I won't be able to hurt you
To touch you,
To love you.
I will never leave you alone
In this world you are my own
You can go if you want to,
No one will harm you
No one will touch you
No one will love you
I shall always leave your side to explore,
and yet I always return to check on you.
I will love you till the end.
I can't leave.
I'm tormented by you!
I can't leave!
I love you!
You can go if you want to,
I can't stop you,
I can't leave you,
I can't return to you.
I love you,
and I shall never let you leave.