i don't understand my dreams. i woke up around 4AM after having the most wonderful dream. and it was hardly anything at all but it gave me the most amazing feeling. i dont know who i was but it just felt as though i was at complete peace for 2 seconds. just one unrealistic hug made me feel totally calm.
For some reason i was walking though grass. and there was so many people there as well. there was one boy. long black hair. wearing only black clothes. of course taller than me. we walked up to each other like i knew him and he knew me. for some reason i felt so tired and he hugged me. and picked me up with my arms around his neck and legs around his waist. head on his shoulder. i was staring at the shadow of him and i as he just walked. carrying me as though i was a small child. and it just made me feel so happy.
i felt warm inside and i felt whole. as though i didnt have that empty feeling i usually have. i believe ive only felt that way once in my life. a thursday. and i believe i never will feel that way again. but that dream was just so great. i had missed that feeling so much. there was two other friend in black by my side. male. but this one really made a difference. im not sure if i had angered him later in the dream but it just made me feel so calm and happy.
i woke up and cried. i cried because i know i will never get that feeling again. or maybe not in a long time. i cried because i realized the only time i will feel that way is in a dream. that my life hurts so much that one dream, sleeping seems better. sleeping either kills me one night or helps me another. well this once. ive been having nightmares since August 13 and after every one ive sobbed my heart out. but this one has given me hope of a greater feeling even if it is only in a dream.
but its also given me more fear. i fear i might dream of horrible things when i sleep bit im scared i wont be able to see him in my dreams again. although itll most likely never happn.
i wish to know who that was in my dream. you realize who someone is once you see them in your dream. even if they look different. but he. i couldnt picture who it was at all. possibly someone i havnt met yet. is this person dead. has he, or even so, did he ever exist. i need to know. he might save my life. 9/12/07 - 1:08PM
[But then, look at me, thinking someone in a dream might be a real person..]
For some reason i was walking though grass. and there was so many people there as well. there was one boy. long black hair. wearing only black clothes. of course taller than me. we walked up to each other like i knew him and he knew me. for some reason i felt so tired and he hugged me. and picked me up with my arms around his neck and legs around his waist. head on his shoulder. i was staring at the shadow of him and i as he just walked. carrying me as though i was a small child. and it just made me feel so happy.
i felt warm inside and i felt whole. as though i didnt have that empty feeling i usually have. i believe ive only felt that way once in my life. a thursday. and i believe i never will feel that way again. but that dream was just so great. i had missed that feeling so much. there was two other friend in black by my side. male. but this one really made a difference. im not sure if i had angered him later in the dream but it just made me feel so calm and happy.
i woke up and cried. i cried because i know i will never get that feeling again. or maybe not in a long time. i cried because i realized the only time i will feel that way is in a dream. that my life hurts so much that one dream, sleeping seems better. sleeping either kills me one night or helps me another. well this once. ive been having nightmares since August 13 and after every one ive sobbed my heart out. but this one has given me hope of a greater feeling even if it is only in a dream.
but its also given me more fear. i fear i might dream of horrible things when i sleep bit im scared i wont be able to see him in my dreams again. although itll most likely never happn.
i wish to know who that was in my dream. you realize who someone is once you see them in your dream. even if they look different. but he. i couldnt picture who it was at all. possibly someone i havnt met yet. is this person dead. has he, or even so, did he ever exist. i need to know. he might save my life. 9/12/07 - 1:08PM
[But then, look at me, thinking someone in a dream might be a real person..]
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...your luckey...for having a wonderful dream... I'd kill for one of those...