Well, lately I have been bored. I get only a few PMs a day which saddens me some. Really. Yes, I could be doing all sorts of stuff other than going on the computer and entering the world of Gaia, but sometimes the internet is the only way to keep myself busy.
I've been thinking...I need more friends on this site. Before, I had millions of friends which was a little bit of a mistake since half of them don't even talk to me. Having a lot more literate friends would be great. *thanks all my literate chums*
My mind wanders off too much...*sigh* Anyway, I typed up another entry because, I feel empty for some reason. Sometimes I wish I could travel back into the past since those times were my happiest memories, but then reality slaps me in the face. I keep thinking how long my life is on this earth, and I honestly get scared.
Hope is what would describe me. I always hope for one special person to just come out of the darkness and never leave me. Even though I am a sap for romantic crap, I find a haven in a world full of possibilities. Wouldn't it be great if you found someone who could understand you and love you even though you have flaws? I would love that.
Truth is, I'm waiting for that person to just put me out of my misery. People I know expect me to be a certain way...to be predictable. It would be nice if I were truly happy...if I can just know what it is like to not have feelings of anger and resentment whenever I see others being happier than I could be.
Is it stupid of me to think that I could experience love? I keep thinking that, and it drives me insane. I am waiting for a person to just love me and just... *shakes my head*...I never had my first kiss for real. Never really got hugged by a guy who said he had a crush on me. Never even had a guy who said he liked me. I think that's sad for a sixteen-year-old. I'm getting old and not experiencing something that a girl my age usually experiences. Time passes, and the waiting process is painful. Sometimes, I do get tired of waiting but...it might be worth it in the end. It's not like I am going to throw my life away just for one guy. I want someone that I could trust and hang out with. Someone who I know won't leave me for another person...won't abandon me...and just be there when I need it. If the person I think won't read this...reads this then just please talk to me. I get worried...
It sucks to have a cold at this rate, but I am trying my best to pull through to type this for my viewers and friends who read my journal. Thank you. If you have any advice that will help me keep my hopes up, then please...feel free to dish it out to me.
Love for you all.
~Emily
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